No Better Person

Realizing..

I waited patiently in my room for Femi and Lorra to be done..a part of me wanted to ask him if I had done anything wrong..and the other part wanted to explain what had happened earlier to him..But it seemed as if they weren't going to be done anytime soon.

I waited about half an hour for Them to be done but to no avail....then I have up and went downstairs.

"Are you okay"

Shola asked immediately she saw me.

"Yes, I am good"

"Can I talk to you??"

"Yes, sure"

I knew shola was curious about how I knew Sarah and what had really happened between us...I wasn't ready to explain anything to anybody..i was ready to take whatever had happened between Sarah and I to grave. i mean, do I owe anybody an explanation? Do I need someone to sympathize with me? Of course not....but given the fact that things were no longer working in my favor.... I had to at least tell her something, anything that would convince her that I was the good guy.

Shola and I moved to the dinning table were we sat across each other..we had so many things going on in our heads. So many questions to ask.

"I am so sorry if I am trespassing or ....."

"No, no,no, Shola...you are free to ask me anything at anytime. Okay?"

Shola took a really deep breath before saying anything. I could tell that she wasn't sure if I wanted to talk about it. She was the careful type...always mindful of what to say and to whom to say it to.

"Earlier....I saw you have some kind of intense argument with lorra's sister. I could tell that you guys had a very Chaotic history...and I know you wouldn't want to tell me about it...and it's fine if you don't want to...but I would love to know how much you knew lorra's sister."

This was not the question I expected to hear.

"Sarah and I were just roommates"

"Rita, I am not a baby...you and Sarah might have shared a room...but it was more than that."

"Shola, listen I...."

"Do you by any chance know who Oliver is?"

Now tell me how in God's name Shola knew who Oliver was? I mean, it's so unexpected and I couldn't help but wonder how much Shola knew about Oliver.

"You know Oliver?" I asked in shock.

"Yes. Oliver and I served in the same Camp"

"W...w..what?"

"So you know him."

"Of...yeah...I...I...I mean...I was...I mean we..we were.."

"Is everything okay?"

I was gradually turning red. I couldn't breathe for a second. It finally reminded me of few minutes before I got into an accident.

Oliver's name was my biggest trauma, my biggest fear and my worst nightmare.

"Are you okay" shola asked..holding my hands with so much concern.

"Did I say something wrong?"

I shook my head... letting shola know that I was fine.

"Do you need water or..."

"Hey...I am fine"

"I don't think you are in the right state to talk right now"

"No,no. I am okay....I just have panic attacks sometimes."

"Are you sure? If you are not feeling well I could help...."

"What made you think I knew who Oliver was?" I immediately cut her off.

"I saw you once"

"You saw me? Where? When?"

"On the 10th of November 2015. You came to see him outside the camp. You were on a long yellow dress with nearly made braids...that was when I saw you and thought..maybe you guys were dating."

How could she be so accurate? Now... I was getting More and more curious... Finally.. they was somebody I could talk to.

"How could you remember all that?"

"You were the most beautiful girl I had ever seen on planet earth..I just couldn't help but stare at you. I was so obsessed with the way you looked, smiled, walked and talked. Everybody on camp talked about how gorgeous you were."

"So all this time..you knew who I was? And you said nothing?"

"I was so excited to finally meet you.. I thought it was such an amazing opportunity to finally speak to you. i thought maybe fate has brought us together"

"I...I..I mean, I am so shocked"

"I sent you a message on the 3rd of December 2017.. could you remember?"

"On the 3rd of December?"

"It says 'hi' and nothing more..I just wanted to check up on you but didn't know how. I knew it would be weird to receive a message from someone you haven't met before..so I just sent you hi..and that was it."

"Who gave you my number?"

"Gerald was Oliver's friend..and I was close to Gerald....soooo"

"I know Gerald " I surprisingly answered.

"Cute, Short, light skinned....."

"Yes....I remember him" I answered in shock again.

"He was the one"

"I am so...happy and so surprised at the same time. I mean, how possible is this? I mean,.... why did it take you about a year later to text me?"

"Because after a few weeks.... I stopped seeing you..I started seeing a different girl"

"A different girl?"

"Yes..."

"And who was this different girl? Could you describe her?"

"It's....someone you know."

"Someone I know?"

"Lorra"

"Wait....what??"

"After about two months or so of not seeing seeing you. I started seeing Lorra.

She would come every two days to see Oliver....and that was when I started to suspect that maybe you guys were no longer dating. but something was odd...."

"What was odd?"

"The way Oliver moved on was so suspicious and odd. either he was double dating you or he was a total scumb bag. how could he replace you immediately? I thought to myself countlessly."

"When did you start seeing Lorra at the camp?"

"Hmmmm...I think around the ending of November."

"Oliver..stopped calling me on the 15 of November."

"Stopped calling you? I thought you guys broke up?"

Somethings were not adding up.