Beyond The Control

Chapter 70

“Ah…!”

The skin stimulation and headache awakened contradictory sensations. While my head throbbed, I felt pleasure, and while my erect dick dripped pre-cum, the area around my eyes stung.

Seemingly unsatisfied with simple contact, Song Ji-hyeok turned my face and pressed his lips against mine again. Trying to focus on guiding while this was happening left me feeling confused and disoriented.

In contrast, Song Ji-hyeok was dedicated to his task. As soon as the concentrated energy dispersed into smaller pieces, he instinctively broke the kiss. He released my body from his embrace and grabbed my buttocks with both hands, spreading them apart.

“Hnngh!”

I shuddered at the sensation of something rubbing against my entrance. I could feel my nipples hardening without even being touched.

“It’s twitching like crazy. Should I put it in now?”

“No, just keep going like this…”

I tightened my legs, which I had slightly spread earlier. I was already feeling overwhelmed and couldn’t handle the thought of penetration.

Feeling somewhat uneasy, I straightened my waist and turned my body the other way. I grasped Song Ji-hyeok’s glistening dick and stroked it quickly. With my other hand, I rubbed and kneaded between his testicles. It wasn’t long before he ejaculated.

I let go of him and took out a handkerchief I had prepared in my vest pocket. And not just a handkerchief – I had also brought portable wet wipes. Seeing me take out these items, Song Ji-hyeok commented with interest:

“You should have brought some condoms too.”

I couldn’t bring myself to tell him that I had those as well. I could vividly imagine him immediately taking one out, putting it on, and thrusting his hips without hesitation. Pretending not to hear, I pulled out a few wet wipes and handed them to him. Song Ji-hyeok accepted them without protest.

…He just accepted them. Instead of cleaning up, he boldly demanded:

“Let’s do it one more time.”

Before I could respond, our lips met again. I opened my eyes wide in surprise for a moment, but soon closed them and resumed guiding out of habit.

As we pressed our bodies together, I could feel that a significant amount of the damaged energy had been restored, likely due to our physical contact. However, my condition remained unchanged. Even as we intertwined our tongues and touched each other, the headache showed no signs of subsiding.

‘Focus only on guiding.’

With that thought in mind, I stroked Song Ji-hyeok’s dick. He, too, honestly drew out my pleasure without teasing or playing around, and thanks to that, we both climaxed at about the same time.

For a moment, I felt dizzy and staggered, and Song Ji-hyeok quickly caught me.

“Are you okay?”

Even in this situation, I felt I shouldn’t show weakness. I forced myself to stand on my own two feet and looked at Song Ji-hyeok with a strained smile.

“I’m fine. My legs just gave out for a second.”

Song Ji-hyeok let out a disbelieving laugh.

“Just from this? If we’d done it properly, you’d have collapsed completely.”

“Yeah, I think so.”

I agreed casually and wiped off the mess once more. As the guiding ended, Song Ji-hyeok moved first, his face looking much more relaxed. I followed him, digging my nails into my palms to try and regain my composure.

The team members were still acting freely. Jae-young hyung, known for his big appetite, was still eating something, while the team leader sat on the ground, deep in thought with his arms resting on his raised knees.

I sat down heavily on my sleeping bag, trying to maintain a neutral expression. But the terrible headache persisted. The back of my head felt like it was being stabbed with needles, and the pain radiated to the area around my eyes.

Unable to bear it any longer, I rummaged through my waist pack. After glancing around cautiously, I quickly took out two painkillers and swallowed them with some water.

The reason I looked around warily was because of our team’s unique atmosphere.

Most Espers prefer to fight individually, and even those who go on missions together often act competitively, as if there’s a rivalry between them. Even initially polite and affectionate people quickly adapt to this atmosphere and become increasingly cold-blooded. Moreover, injuries during battle are frequent, so unless someone’s limbs are flying off or they’re in danger of going berserk, people generally don’t pay much attention to others.

In contrast, the people in our team try to maintain their humanity. If my attack might harm another Esper, I’d give it up without hesitation, and if someone gets injured during battle, we’d immediately check on their well-being once the fight is over. This is thanks to the team leader fostering such an atmosphere for a long time.

So if I showed even the slightest sign of discomfort, it would immediately worry the team members. Above all, the timing wasn’t good. The headache had started while I was guiding Song Ji-hyeok.

“…”

My expression became a bit more serious. If that were the case, the sudden headache could be a side effect of guiding.

‘No. It can’t be.’

As soon as the thought occurred to me, I quickly erased it from my mind. I’ve done even more intense guiding several times before, but aside from collapsing from exhaustion, I’ve never experienced any other symptoms.

I vividly remember Song Ji-hyeok’s expression when Choi Young-sun mentioned throwing up after guiding. He had been so eager for her guiding before, but when she showed abnormal symptoms, he turned cold as if flipping a switch. If that’s how he treated an A-rank guide, I wouldn’t stand a chance.

Feeling a sense of crisis, my mind automatically started thinking in a biased way.

The headache that started a little while ago must be a 100% coincidence. There’s plenty of evidence. We’ve been in an enclosed space for hours, constantly on edge while dealing with formidable monsters.

The headache might have started when the tension finally eased, allowing us to catch our breath. It just happened to coincide with when I was guiding Song Ji-hyeok…

“Shall we lie down now?”

Han Song-i, who was in charge of the first watch, stood up and spoke. Everyone obediently crawled into their sleeping bags.

Some might wonder why we’re sleeping in a dungeon, but sleep is extremely important. As people with specialized physical abilities, even a short nap can lead to rapid physical recovery, and it refreshes our minds that have worked as hard as our bodies.

With the same hope that my condition would improve while sleeping, I curled up in my sleeping bag and tried to fall asleep.

In the end, the headache didn’t completely disappear. Thanks to the painkillers, the stabbing pain in the back of my head had somewhat subsided, but the overall throbbing sensation remained.

Moreover, my condition wasn’t great. I had tossed and turned due to the headache, and waking up intermittently for watch duty left my body feeling limp like a wet cloth.

Of course, I couldn’t show any of this. I pretended to be fine as much as possible, forced myself to eat a little, and waited for the other team members to finish their meals.

‘Should I take another dose?’

That seemed like the best option. Once we start moving, it would be difficult to avoid people’s eyes, so now was my chance. Like yesterday, I cautiously reached into my waist pack, glancing around nervously. I fumbled for the painkiller bottle, took out a pill, and casually brought it to my mouth as if nothing was wrong.

“…”

But to my dismay, as soon as I straightened my head after drinking water, I made direct eye contact with the team leader.

There was no time for a playful response like grinning mischievously or giving a thumbs up. The team leader stood up abruptly and strode towards me. Then, he whispered in my ear:

“Can I see you for a moment?”

The team leader saying “Can I see you” was more terrifying than threats like “You’re dead” or “I’ll kill you.” Having experienced this numerous times before, I followed the team leader like a dog on an invisible leash.

As soon as we stepped out, the team leader asked me:

“Are you feeling unwell? You took medicine, right?”

Lying wasn’t an option with someone like him. I hesitated for a moment before confessing.

“I have a bit of a headache. Everything else is fine.”

“When did it start?”

“When I woke up this morning, I felt a bit dizzy. It should subside soon now that I’ve taken medicine.”

However, I couldn’t bring myself to say “It started during guiding.” The team leader reached out and felt my forehead.

“Fortunately, you don’t have a fever. It might be distracting, so don’t actively participate today. Just focus on guiding Ji-hyeok later.”

In other words, don’t push yourself and risk getting hurt; just take good care of our ace, Song Ji-hyeok. I felt grateful for the team leader’s consideration in phrasing it in a way that wouldn’t hurt my feelings.

And so, I decided to obey the team leader’s words without protest. It’s a principle to unconditionally follow the leader’s orders in a dungeon, and even if it wasn’t, I was well aware of my position.