Calibrating the NTR Drift in the Light Novel - MTL

While confessing her story, Soo-yeon Choi choked several times and sought water. Each time, her emotions became so intense that she hugged me and cried.

And when the story was over, she laughed helplessly, rubbing her dry eyes as if no tears were coming out.

"Ha… Haha… I'm funny, right? I feel like I'm dating alone, and I feel like I'm in love alone. Furthermore, I thought that if you get along with Yuri, I'll get along with Youngbae… But the person I'm giving the rice cake to is… I didn't even think about it, but I was drinking kimchi soup by myself. Wow, this is the first time I've felt so miserable in my life… Ugh…"

"It's okay. It's going to be hard, so don't say more. Come here."

I tapped my hand on the floor next to me, and we sat together on the blanket I was sleeping on, leaning my back against the wall.

"How many times should I give that bastard Gong Young-bae a beating?"

"Yes. Very good."

When she asked the same question, Lee Yu-ri told her not to do so, but Choi Soo-yeon immediately responded by telling her to hit her.

Although her personality is different, it probably means that she has suffered a lot.

Of course, it seemed like she didn't say it because she truly wanted me to beat up Gong Young-bae.

Suyeon Choi dropped her head to the side helplessly and muttered, resting her head on my shoulder.

"… Senior, do you have alcohol?"

"There are some things I bought before that I didn't drink, but why? Are you going to drink alcohol?"

"I don't think I can survive if I don't drink."

"What kind of drink is 2nd grade?"

"I'm 20 years old by kneeling."

"But no. Looking at what you did earlier, I don't know what you'll do if you get drunk in this state."

At my words, Sooyeon Choi raised her head for a moment and looked at me, then rested her head on my shoulder again.

"Aren't you surprised? I'm 20 years old."

I can't honestly say that because I knew that…

Since he was the one who revealed it first, I brought out a comment to further capture Choi Su-yeon's heart.

"Then what changes?"

"Yes?"

"Does it really matter whether you're 19 or 20? All I see in my eyes is a girl whose heart has been broken so badly that she's emotionally unstable."

"… And even though my senior treated me so well, I am the woman who ran to Youngbae as soon as I had the chance. You were also annoyed inside. You were disillusioned."

"Not at all? Even though you said you liked Gong Young-bae in the first place, I was the one who suggested Ddaeng-daeng take you along. If you think about it that way, aren't I the worse person?"

"Yeah, but I… I…"

"Don't try to find reasons to criticize yourself. You're not that bad of a woman."

Choi Su-yeon brought her knees to her chest and bowed her head.

It seemed like she was shedding tears again as her shoulders were shaking.

I gave her a moment to calm down and then asked another question.

"But I'm curious as to why you kneeled. Did you repeat a grade?"

Of course, I knew the reason, but I pretended not to know and asked.

Let's narrow the distance between Choi Soo-yeon and her by making her share all of her secrets with me.

"… I went to study abroad."

"Oh, study abroad? Where? America? Japan? Europe?"

"When I was in middle school, I went to America. I didn't want to go, but my parents forced me for a year to go there to study…"

"It must have been difficult. Did you communicate well?"

"… Living wasn't a problem. But after I finished studying abroad and returned to Korea, I naturally ended up taking a year off… All my friends went to higher education academies, but I was the only one in middle school.

Because the kids in my class are different ages, they are reluctant to me… Do you know how I feel when I find out that a group chat room has been created without me?"

"It must have been like a dog."

"All my friends were a grade higher, so I no longer had to run into them, and the kids in my class were ostracizing me… Meanwhile, at home, they were constantly telling me to get better grades."

"Hearing what you say, it seems like you studied quite a bit before, but did you get derailed because of that?"

"… Yes. It was my own way of rebelling. At first, I was scolded and kicked out of the house, but now I'm just treated like a child who gave up at home.

It suits me right now, right? I was abandoned at home, I was separated from my friends, and what was left was a relationship with a delinquent son who was deviant and a fake relationship… Nothing about me is real.

He was a man who liked my only support, and I was just a convenient junior who could be exploited. He's just an inconvenience to everyone, and he's so pathetic that he's not loved by anyone… Hehe… Ahaha hot…"

As Soo-yeon Choi spoke, she began to make more and more self-destructive comments again, and I gently held her head and pulled her to my shoulder to stop her.

There was no resistance, and Sooyeon Choi just rested her head on my shoulder.

"Don't talk like that. As I said before, you are a good enough woman. On the contrary, that bastard Gong Young-bae is an asshole. If someone like you, who has a pretty face, kind personality, and a lot of charm, says he likes you, but you don't even know that, is that a man? You eunuch. Or does that guy like men?"

"Phew."

"Isn't there a possibility? If you had done that to me, I would have hugged you with open arms. How can a woman like you cling to me, but then become a man and not respond to her? It's clear. It's clear that that bastard likes men. "

"Then isn't the senior the most dangerous?"

Suyeon Choi said, still leaning her head on my shoulder.

"Me?"

"To be honest, my senior is also quite masculine and handsome. He's tall and has a nice body. His behavior was a bit… A bit like that, but I don't hear much about it these days. If I were gay, I think I'd target him first, right?"

For a moment, I had a very terrible imagination that I shouldn't have, and I shuddered.

"That's creepy. Don't say that because it's scary."

"He started first."

"That's right. I was wrong. I'm scared to death, so please don't say that. Do you see that I'm getting goosebumps? Look at my arms."

I showed my skinny arms, and Suyeon Choi traced my forearm with her finger and smiled lightly.

"Sir, it's strange as expected."

"Why me?"

"There are things I heard directly from my friends, and it's strange that he suddenly changed so much, and it's strange that he's so kinder than I thought, and I thought he'd ask for my body after he broke up with me, but that's not the case, and it's strange.

On that topic, I went straight to Youngbae, but he didn't say anything, so it was strange, and since I was abandoned, he brought me home like this. Why are you being so nice to me?"

"What have you been hearing from me so far?"

"Yes?"

I looked directly into Sooyeon Choi's eyes.

Choi Su-yeon, who was wearing my men's shirt and pants, looked strangely sexier even though she wasn't showing anything.

"Why am I being nice to you? Because you are a very nice girl. Does a man need any more reason to be nice to a girl he likes?"

Choi Soo-yeon's eyes, which were staring at me, gradually began to shake.

Then, Suyeon Choi, who understood everything, suddenly raised her head and took it off my shoulder.

"Sir, your prank is a bit excessive. I didn't know you had this type of personality…"

"Isn't it a joke?"

"Eh…"

"Then you thought I was just saying empty words to comfort you? Unfortunately, I am far from that kind of lip service."

"Yeah, but you're dating senior Yuri…"

"Oh, we're not dating yet."

"Still…?"

Choi Su-yeon tilted her head.

Anyone who saw us would have thought we were dating.

"He said he liked it, but I thought he needed time to gather his thoughts, so I told him he could respond later."

At that moment, Sooyeon Choi's eyes changed slightly, and she glanced at me.

"… Then you confessed to Yuri earlier, and now you're bringing another woman to her house?"

"That's right. I'm a very greedy and selfish person when it comes to women, so when I see a good woman, I want it all. Yuri Lee and you too."

"Wow… I've never heard such a shameless thing in my life. It wasn't just that it was strange, but there was no answer at all."

"I haven't learned anything. Please understand."

Suyeon Choi, who was looking me up and down as if looking at her trash, leaned back against the wall and placed her head on my shoulder.

"But… I feel like this shameless possessiveness is better than a made-up favor, so I don't think I really have an answer."

Sooyeon Choi slipped her arm between my arms and crossed her arms, hugging her tightly.

"Sir. Shall we… Do this?"

It was obvious what we wanted to do.

To be honest, as soon as I heard those words, my lower abdomen began to swell like an active volcano exploding, but I answered while fighting against my desires.

"I said not now."

"Why? You said you liked me."

"It's not that you really like me as a man, you're just doing it to break your heart and destroy yourself in some way.

"I try to brainwash myself by thinking, 'I'm such a dirty bitch, so it's natural for me to be treated like that.'"

"…"

"Honestly, it doesn't matter if it's me or anyone else right now, right? I just need a reason to destroy myself. I don't feel good with a guy like that, and more than anything, you'll regret it for the rest of your life."

"… How do you know that?"

"Do you think you'll feel any better after doing this with me? It'll make you want to die, right? I don't have the hobby of watching the girl I like get ruined like that right in front of my eyes. And… I have to leave later than anything else, so I don't have time. "No."

"…? You're going out again?"

"Uh. I told you the other day. We're gangsters… No, I just decided to get together with kids who are similar to me."

"Ah."

It was only then that Sooyeon Choi remembered the 'meeting' I had mentioned once before.

In the first place, Su-yeon Choi must have heard this story many times from the girls in her second-grade class.

"I have to get ready soon, so you should get ready to go home too. Please return your clothes later. And since you are already a good enough girl and a child who deserves to be loved, don't have strange thoughts and leak out in the middle. Well, even if I say this, it won't be much of a consolation. ."

Suyeon Choi was silent for a moment, then she grabbed my collar.

"I don't want to go home."

"Hey, that doesn't mean I'm going to join you in destroying yourself-"

"Not that. My senior said that back then, right? He told me to either rehearse for the date course with him, or pretend to be his girlfriend and participate in the meeting instead, so I could have an excuse to leave the meeting. I still remember it."

Choi Su-yeon took a deep breath, perhaps trying to calm her stomach.

Then, facing me, she stretched out her arms, wrapped them around the back of my neck, and whispered into my ear.

"I said I was a woman worthy of love, right? Then prove it to me."

"You…"

"I will go to that meeting with my senior. As a 'girlfriend'."