DASH

"No, it can't be."

Ji Hong quickly shook his head.
"After all, Jae-kyung said that he didn't think much about children. He didn't just talk about something unnecessary - he never considered such a possibility at all. So why would he suddenly want a child now? Surely he also took contraceptives in advance."
While Ji Hong was calming himself down with this thought, Jae Kyung brought medicine and water.

- Read the instructions carefully and accept.
At Jae Kyung's insistence, Ji Hong carefully studied the rather simple instructions twice before swallowing the pill. While Ji Hong was taking the medicine, he stood with his arms crossed and looked to the side, and when Ji Hong stood up, he stretched out his hand with the words:
"Come here."

"I'll take it myself."
-Do not. Just sit.
After saying that, Jae Kyung took the empty glass to the kitchen.

"How are you feeling?"
-That's all right.
- Will you still sleep?

"Hmm, no.
Ji Hong took off the sweater he had hastily put on before going to the hospital, hung it on the headboard.
- Your back hurts from lying down for a long time.

As he put on the T-shirt that he had thrown off in his unconsciousness, Jae Kyung picked up the pants from the floor and handed him them. After waiting for Ji Hong to get fully dressed, he said.
-Forgive me.
At this unexpected apology, Ji Hong exclaimed in surprise.

-A what? For what?! I have to apologize. You were running around the city on such a cold night because of me.
"But if I had restrained myself, hyung, you wouldn't have had to take the pills."
Jae Kyung looked down at the floor and ran his hand over his bangs. Seeing his obvious self-flagellation, Ji Hong hurriedly retorted.
"No, hey, don't say that. I incited you myself. I remember everything.

"Yes, and it drove me even more crazy."
Now he understood why so many people go to a psychologist after their first heat.
"Besides, you've been in a state of rutting because of me, too. In such a situation, how can you restrain yourself at all?

While he was seriously debating whether to add something like "I couldn't restrain myself and begged you, saying all sorts of things" and whether it would be a shot in his foot, Jae Kyung, as before, sat down next to him and said,
"I thought I could control myself even in heat.
-A what?..

At the unexpected words, Ji Hong forgot what he wanted to say and stared at Jae Kyung with a blank expression.
"Listen, you... You don't control yourself even in normal times, as you were going to control yourself during heat?.. Did you really think it was possible?
In amazement, he could hardly speak. In response to his stammering speech, Jae Kyung replied seriously.

-Exactly. I thought that since I am always in this state, then it will be about the same during heat. In normal times, not only could I not restrain myself, I just did not restrain myself, so I decided that if I wanted to, I could this time.
"Oh, is that so?" So, in normal times, not only could you not - you just did not want to restrain yourself?
Even at such a moment, Ji Hong raised an eyebrow as he said this.

- Is this the main thing now?..
Jae-kyung, apparently realizing that he had said something unfavorable to himself, deliberately lowered his voice sternly. Then he sighed again and plopped down on the bed.
- In general, now I understand what real heat is.

Putting his hand on his forehead and looking at the ceiling, he muttered it with a kind of anxious look. It was noticeable that he wasn't just talking, he was really shocked, and this greatly embarrassed Ji Hun. What surprised him the most was that Jae Kyung genuinely believed in his ability to control himself even during heat.
"This guy... He just has incredible faith in himself and confidence in his abilities."
Ji Hong was impressed.

"To be honest, this confidence seemed even a little excessive, but he decided to remain silent. Jae Kyung was already depressed by his "failure", there was no need to add salt to the wound. Besides, come to think of it, wasn't he the root cause of Jae Kyung's 'disappointment'?"
Ji Hong, belatedly feeling responsible, began to comfort him diligently.
- Listen, such a truth cannot be controlled by willpower. If you could cope on your own, why would everyone take pills and give injections? Precisely because this is impossible, you have to resort to the help of medicine.

"And yet," Jae Kyung said in a depressed voice.
- I don't understand how I could do this, seeing how much it hurts and hards for hyung.
"He must have been talking about a knot."

Ji Hong believed that Jae Kyung had taken care no matter what, choosing the right posture and generally doing everything he could, but it seemed that Jae Kyung himself thought otherwise.
"So that's why they say that the beaten man sleeps peacefully, and the beaten man does not find a place for himself?"
While Ji Hong was thinking about this inappropriate saying, Jae Kyung, lying on the bed, gently hugged his waist and asked,

- Hyung, were you in a lot of pain?
Ji Hong wanted to calm him down somehow, but after he sobbed, begged, and even fainted from the pain, any obvious lie would hardly bring comfort, so he replied relatively honestly.
"Not very... Only to the point of losing consciousness.

- ...
Jae Kyung's expression turned gloomy again. He even removed his hand from Ji Hong's waist and turned away. His unusually depressed look seemed both cute and pitiful, and Ji Hong lay down next to him with a smile. He made Jae Kyung, who didn't even look into his eyes, turn to him, hugged him gently, and said,
- But otherwise everything was fine. Not as terrible as I thought.

Jae Kyung looked at him with obvious disbelief. Seeing this expression, Ji Hong stroked his cheek and laughed.
-Really. In my right mind, of course, I would not be able to do that... But I'm glad it happened to you.
Ji Hong finally said what he really felt.

- I wouldn't want to be with someone else.
"Yes, he felt good and calm precisely because it was Jae Kyung. He was confident that Jae Kyung would accept any of his manifestations. He himself said that he would only be happy to see new sides of Ji Hun. Therefore, he allowed himself to completely abandon his reason and surrender to feelings."
"But I'm a little sorry that because of me, you had to go through something that could not have happened.

When Ji Hong, suddenly embarrassed, tried to remove his hand from his cheek, Jae Kyung quickly grabbed it and said,
- No, I didn't think the rut itself was bad either.
-Really?

Jae Kyung nodded, pressing his lips to Ji Hun's palm.
- I liked that you, hyung, talked a lot, asking me for different things, and showed so many of your erotic sides. To be honest, if it were not for what happened at the end, I would even like to repeat it.
"Yes... if it wasn't for the mating," Ji Hong thought.

"To be honest, the sex itself was not bad. No, it's even good. It was the only moment when you could forget about everything and crave only a partner. At that moment, he could throw away shame, embarrassment, and even himself. And no one condemned him. And since both were in the same state, it went beyond simple physical pleasure - some kind of spiritual satisfaction appeared. Now he understood why alpha and omega couples sometimes stopped taking suppressants and went into heat together, even without planning a pregnancy. But the mating process was too painful, and most importantly, because of the fear of getting pregnant, he didn't want to do it again."
Only when he thought that this was probably his first and last heat in his life, he heard:
"May I ask something?"

Ji Hong blinked as if saying "what?". Jae Kyung stared at him silently for a while, then calmly asked.
"Hyung, are you thinking about having a child someday?"
At this moment, Ji Hun's heart skipped a beat. Not so much from the question itself, but from the expression on Jae Kyung's face. His unusually cautious but desperate look clearly said that this was not just idle curiosity. Obviously, he had the desired answer. Ji Hong first wanted to dodge the question as usual, but changed his mind. Since Jae Kyung was asking seriously, it would be right to answer just as seriously.

- Do you want children?
Jae Kyung didn't answer. It seemed not because he didn't want to talk, but because he didn't really understand his feelings yet. Therefore, Ji Hong said:
"You said before that you didn't think much about it.

-Yes. True, I never thought about it.
This time, the answer came immediately.
- Because I thought Hyun was beta. Initially, I didn't even have such an option.

Jae Kyung covered his eyes with Ji Hun's hand and continued.
- When I found out that hyung is an omega, I thought "oh, then you can get pregnant", but since you said that you don't want to give birth...
That is, he simply did not think about it seriously.

- And now your opinion has changed?
"I don't know," Jae-kyung replied, still covering his eyes with Ji Hun's hand.
"Maybe I'm just still under the influence of the rut.

He said this hesitantly, then let go of Ji Hong's hand and sat down. Sharply running his hand over his bangs, he continued:
"Like I said, I thought you hyung really wanted a child back then. Of course, I knew that you can't believe the words said during heat, but I still thought that in your case it could be true.
"Yes, it is possible," Ji Hong agreed in his mind. He perfectly understood Jae Kyung's train of thought and couldn't object to anything.

"It's not going to work this time because I took birth control, but I thought that then hyung and I could have a normal conversation about it and have a baby at the right time.
"A little ahead of himself, but okay," Ji Hong still thought generously.
- Now everything turned out unexpectedly and chaotically. Therefore, next time you could prepare everything in advance, take a vacation for a month and rent a villa with a pool somewhere...

"Aren't these too specific plans?.. How far did he think it through?"
When Ji Hong, finally realizing the seriousness of the situation, frowned in alarm, Jae Kyung continued.
- If you take a villa with a pool, Bali or the Maldives are usually advised, but I like the Maldives more. In general, it is more expensive there and, it seems, better.

Apparently, he has already managed to make a complete comparison of villas in Bali and the Maldives. Finally, with a serious face, he said to Ji Hong.
- Hyun, you know, in the Maldives there is such an entertainment - watching coral reefs. They say that if you see some rare golden tropical fish there, then a genius will be born.
-Hmm... Really?

-Yes. It seems to have become a mandatory part of the honeymoon.
"Wow, what they won't come up with.
Ji Hong smiled politely, but before Jae Kyung could say anything strange, he quickly called.

- Jae Kyung-ah.
And he asked deliberately softly:
"Have you been looking for such information all this time while I was sleeping?"

Jae-kyung only now, it seemed, having realized the situation, fell silent. But not for long - soon he replied dryly:
-Yes. I was looking for a lot.