Harmonious Love

A Perfect Lie (4)

As soon as the words left his mouth, he knew. He would probably regret this moment again. As Tae Young-won said, he was someone who needed him.

Mo Yeon was a person who needed Tae Young-won’s touch so much that he already felt empty without the wrist that had been held all along. He hated the fact that he was in a position where he had to rely on him so much that he wanted to deny it.

So this time, he wanted to endure. As much as possible, he didn’t want to fall again.

Knowing the ending where he would have to endure alone anyway, he didn’t want to repeat similar things again.

“……”

“……”

Silence flowed for a long time as they gazed at each other.

No words were exchanged. Despite the long silence, Mo Yeon stubbornly glared with eyes that had become colder than ever.

“…Wow.”

In the end, it was Tae Young-won who broke the silence first.

“This time, it hurts a bit.”

There was no expression on his face as he muttered lowly. His voice was just as indifferent. That’s why Mo Yeon couldn’t say anything.

Mo Yeon clenched his fist.

“I wonder why you’re clawing at me like this…”

He thought the smirking face somehow looked bitter.

The mouth that had been moving finally couldn’t utter any words. Even he wasn’t sure why he was doing this.

As he had done all his life, Mo Yeon was trying to wrap himself up tightly again.

***

It wasn’t long ago that Tae Young-won felt something had gone seriously wrong.

For someone who had always sought new stimulation, there were hardly any times when he truly enjoyed it. Sex was the same. There were always suitable partners around, and even though he considered himself active, the sexual desire he felt would become uncomfortable if not relieved. So for Tae Young-won, sex was also a matter of regularly preventing discomfort.

Tae Young-won scanned Mo Yeon’s pale face with his eyes.

Around the time he felt he was becoming numb to all stimuli, there was only one person who consistently stirred his emotions greatly, whether negatively or positively.

Even though it was just a thin frame without lenses, it seemed to function to cover the eyes even if only a little. The mysterious light brown eyes were less prominent when wearing glasses compared to when not wearing them. Especially the slightly upturned eyes, which usually looked sharp, seemed less characteristic than usual. In simple terms, the glasses killed his beauty.

While thinking he wanted to take off the glasses, he also thought it was fortunate that he was wearing at least those. He now knew better than anyone how powerful and seductive Mo Yeon’s eyes could be.

And above all, when he saw him sitting quietly outside like now with round glasses on, he looked quite cute even from an objective point of view. Should we say that when he wears glasses, his cute features are emphasized instead of his facial features being hidden?

‘He’s cute, why does he live like this?’

That’s why such thoughts still often crossed Tae Young-won’s mind. Even while watching him deliberately deceive him right before his eyes, relying on mere glasses, Tae Young-won had such thoughts about Mo Yeon.

While one could respect his way of life for having peculiarities, Mo Yeon had been someone everyone at school had avoided for years.

‘No matter how I look at it, it’s too much of a waste to live like this.’

Although he occasionally did strange things, in Tae Young-won’s eyes, he wasn’t that strange to the point where it couldn’t be seen as cute. Above all, being with him didn’t make him feel bad at all.

“Mo Yeon.”

That’s why one day, Tae Young-won couldn’t help but ask.

“Why are you living as a gay man?”

“…Pardon?”

Mo Yeon’s eyes widened as he was about to sip his strawberry juice. Tae Young-won chuckled as he watched him looking around.

It was a time when there was still time left before the project presentation.

The cafe they visited, due to Tae Young-won’s insistence on introducing Mo Yeon to the taste of coffee, was a place where one could overlook the garden from a spacious and clean terrace, befitting its location in the outskirts.

Of course, Mo Yeon couldn’t get to know the taste of coffee on this day either. In front of him, the drip coffee, which he had only taken one sip of, was already getting cold next to the strawberry juice.

He was still carefully looking around even after quite some time had passed, being so wary of his surroundings. At times like this, he looked like such a shy person. Finally, Tae Young-won said, holding back the laughter that was about to escape:

“There’s no one here.”

“Isn’t it because the coffee is so bitter that no one’s here?”

“Is it that bad?”

He drank the coffee Mo Yeon had put down. He had carefully chosen a balanced bean that wasn’t too acidic or bitter when they were selecting the beans together earlier. Nevertheless, it seemed that to Mo Yeon’s taste, it was just slightly better than the coffee he had tried before, but still too bitter to want to drink.

“It’s fine for me.”

“…I’ll just stick to juice from now on.”

The coffee brewed with beans different from his had its own charm, but it was excellent in its own way. With a smile on his lips, Tae Young-won asked again.

“I didn’t think I’d ever be curious about this, but suddenly I want to know. Why are you living as a gay man when you’re this good? You could live more normally.”

It was difficult for Tae Young-won to understand with his common sense.

“If you just didn’t do weird things, I think you could meet women well too. I still don’t understand.”

To Tae Young-won, meeting men was clearly in the realm of the unconventional. He was now temporarily experiencing this unconventional relationship. So it was natural for Tae Young-won not to understand their lives, and he probably wouldn’t understand in the future either.

Then, as a thought suddenly occurred to him, Tae Young-won’s eyes narrowed.

“Don’t tell me, did someone seduce you into becoming gay too?”

“Pardon?”

They were in a relationship where they hid many things from each other. After all, it was a meeting of two humans who could lie without hesitation if they could make the situation advantageous to themselves. That’s probably why they were maintaining this meaningless relationship.

“Did someone seduce you into becoming gay like they did to me?”

However, the one thing that was undoubtedly sincere was the thought that Mo Yeon had made him somewhat gay-like.

And just as he was about to fall into shock, Mo Yeon calmly shook his head.

“No, that’s not it…”

If so, that was truly fortunate. Mo Yeon blinked his eyes for a long time, pondering Tae Young-won’s question. Sometimes, Mo Yeon would treat most of Tae Young-won’s words as nonsense, but at other times, he would think deeply even about such questions. The difference between these two was still difficult for Tae Young-won to distinguish.

“Somehow, I came to need a man…?”

And finally, the answer Mo Yeon gave after thinking for a long time was completely out of his expectations.

“…What?”

Tae Young-won asked blankly without realizing it. Mo Yeon said with his characteristic expressionless face.

“You said it yourself two days ago, sunbae. That I was born with a body that needs men.”

“……”

“After thinking about it, I found parts that made sense to me too.”

And as Mo Yeon spoke, Tae Young-won’s expression became even more subtle than before.

“You remember too, right, sunbae?”

He didn’t expect those words from back then to be brought up here now.

Despite being in a complete mess, Mo Yeon sharply denied it, saying no.

Tae Young-won stared at the lips that were parted and moaning, then pressed down firmly on the hand that was fumbling above the navel. This made Mo Yeon, who was already being pressed inside from his stomach to his genitals, writhe even more.

Tae Young-won, recalling this unexpected memory from the past, nodded slowly.

“…I did say something like that.”

It was something he had blurted out in the heat of the moment in bed, but it wasn’t entirely untrue. From what he had felt so far, Mo Yeon definitely had an innate talent in bed. Tae Young-won playfully stretched the corners of his mouth.

“Well, I don’t know about other things, but not everyone can feel it when their palate is scratched.”

“…Don’t talk like a pervert in public.”

Mo Yeon said primly, subtly avoiding Tae Young-won’s gaze. It was obvious what Mo Yeon was wary of.

“Even if you do that, I won’t show you any more today. I already showed you in the car, didn’t I?”

“As expected, our Mo Yeon has innate talents, in many ways.”

Tae Young-won grinned. On the surface, he seemed to be smiling happily, but in reality, his eyes were shining with a slightly different light.

It makes sense to him too?

For Mo Yeon, he was just answering a question he was asked, but the recent conversation had actually made Tae Young-won very uncomfortable.