If You Raise Three Idols Well, They Will Confess Their Love

103 – Let’s Put Aside the Stupid Memories and Run Away.

Episode 103

Seo Eun-byul was raised by her mother, who worked at her karaoke bar.

Seo Eun-byeol’s mother did not provide her with a proper education, sending her to daycare or kindergarten. Instead of providing such education, the routine was to leave her sitting unattended in the corner waiting room of the karaoke bar where she went on a business trip. She would not have had a good influence on the young child’s emotions.

A meal consisted of cold Chinese food, leftover dry snacks, fruit snacks, etc. That were served to the guests to eat. They also threw away clothes one by one, including loose t-shirts that I didn’t know where they had been picked up. Of course, she couldn’t have the toys or dolls that a girl that age would want.

A customer once gave her a character doll, a penguin out of her season, that she had chosen in a lottery that challenged her drunkenness and thrown away in her store, but it would be quite insufficient to interpret it as her toy for her her her.

Looking at it objectively, Eunbyeol’s mother was very far from being a good mother.

However, surprisingly, Seo Eun-byeol and her mother had a very good relationship.

Although she seemed immature and irresponsible at times, she was cheerful in everything and was very fond of her mother, who taught her how to smile.

Seo Eun-byul wanted to be someone like her own mother. Her Her Her mother Her She was also able to feel Seo Eun-byeol’s undeserved feelings of her, so even though she was immature as a mother, she tried not to become a violent and scary person. Because they were like that, life was not painful.

“Eunbyul.”

“Huh? Mom, why?”

“Do you have a dream?”

The words her mother said while chewing her nuts and sipping a glass of soju felt too vague to Seo Eun-byeol.

“… I don’t know. Is there such a thing as a dream?”

She looked at her daughter who was worried and her eyebrows were drawn together as if she was having a hard time.

And she stroked her head roughly.

“Ugh… “Why?”

“It’s because you’re cute, man.”

“I’m cute.”

She laughed heartily at Seo Eun-byeol’s sudden cuteness and spoke seriously with complex emotions.

“I wanted to be a singer.”

“Is your mom a singer? Matches well! … But why didn’t it work?”

To that innocent question, her mother answered calmly, erasing old feelings such as regret and despair.

“There are many reasons, but one could be lack of ability. Maybe it’s just bad luck. It could be because I couldn’t challenge myself until the end. “It’s difficult for me to give that answer in one word.”

“… “It’s difficult.”

“Hehe, yes, it was difficult for me too.”

Her mother looked at the moon shining through the small window in the semi-basement. The young Seo Eun-byul said that her eyes looked somewhat sad.

“I think it’s okay even if I don’t have a dream. So, I’m still happy right now?”

“Still, have a dream at least once. If you have that dream, you can be happier than you are now. At least I was truly happy at the moment of dreaming and running.”

“… “Isn’t Mom happy now?”

At Seo Eun-byeol’s words her her her, her mother roughly stroked her head again and said.

“I’m happy, and that’s because you gave me a new dream. “I want to earn money hard so that one day I can move out of this damn basement, eat lots of delicious food, buy expensive things at random, and live a life like that.”

“Sounds like fun!”

“Right?”

The two burst into laughter together.

“Anyway, anything is good, so just a dream. Then people will move on to become happy.”

Seo Eun-byeol, who had been contemplating her words again with her eyebrows raised, answered energetically.

“I want to become a singer like my mom!”

“Hey, it’s very difficult for a woman to become a solo singer in the entertainment industry these days. If you just turn on music broadcasts now, how many solo singers are there? You can count them on one hand, right? “Only a very small number of people can become singers.”

“Mom told me to dream…”

“Because I’ve done it, I can teach you,”

Seo Eun-byeol, who was thinking again, glanced and said.

“Then. Idol?”

Hehe, yes, I’ve made some progress, I think it’s okay. Idol Seo Eun-byeol also has a good tone.”

“Okay, from now on, my dream is to be an idol.”

While she was leaving, Seo Eun-byul showed off a s*xy dance that imitated her older sisters who were dancing at her song bar.

No matter how you look at it, it was an emotionally and educationally poor dance for Seo Eun-byul, who was in kindergarten, but her mother, who was the only audience member to see it, smiled, cheered, and clapped.

That was the moment when Seo Eun-byul dreamed of becoming an idol.

***

As time passed, Seo Eun-byeol became a middle school student.

And after going through hardships and hardships that are difficult to summarize in one sentence during that time, she and her mother succeeded in paying off all of her debt.

It was around that time that a man named Seo Eun-byeol’s father appeared.

“I was really, really sorry.”

As soon as he saw their faces her her her, he got down on his knees and apologized to her.

It seemed like a sincere apology, but it was almost shameless when you remember that she ran away, leaving behind a lot of debt.

Seo Eun-byeol’s mother, who deserved more anger than anyone else at that attitude, was furious.

“Hey, hey. All you have to do is apologize!”

Even though she clearly refused, her father showed up whenever she thought she would forget, gave her snacks, and then ran away. So often that her mother gets even more angry.

As he said, Seo Eun-byul’s father, perhaps wanting to show a different side of himself, worked at a construction site and used the money he earned for her and her mother. Seo Eun-byul continued until she reached the age of entering high school.

By the time it felt like a routine, her mother must have been influenced by his attitude her her, and before she knew it, she no longer got angry at him.

Seo Eun-byeol was happy about that. It felt like the family she longed for had finally become complete.

It could be said that their lives were still hard. However, Seo Eun-byeol was not considered worried or inadequate. Rather than feeling negative like that, I was looking forward to seeing how much further forward I could move forward tomorrow.

Her mother she was right. She was sad the moment she closed her eyes one day, and happy the moment she opened them. Seo Eun-byeol was dreaming.

“How about we set up a store?”

Seo Eun-byeol’s mother, who was suspicious of her father’s proposal to her, gave serious consideration to her successive persuasions to her, and she agreed to the challenge to her , attracted by her words to provide stable support for her her her daughter her her her. She then combines the money she had saved for Seo Eun-byul and the money her father had saved, signs a contract for her store, and orders her equipment, interior, etc. In the process, her father took the lead her, just as he did after his return her to her. Work progressed step by step.

No, it seemed like it was going on.

“… Hey, I just got a call saying the deposit wasn’t paid? “Didn’t you already pay?”

There was no answer.

In the happiest moments, in the most fatal moments.

The betrayal occurred at the moment when trust was placed so that the drop was so high that one could not hold on.

***

One day was enough for Seo Eun-byeol and her mother to destroy the happiness they had built up over a dozen years.

And even years after that day, the two still haven’t been able to make up for the loss of that day,

“No matter what I do, Eunbyeol will make sure that you can continue your life as her trainee. “Just focus on your dream and not worry about anything else.”

Nevertheless, her mother did not give up on her dream.

Strong and unyielding, as if if the sand castle were to collapse, it could be built again.

Instead of falling down and crying and lamenting her life, she chose to stand up again.

After her father’s betrayal of her, She Eun-byul found life difficult for the first time. For the first time she also felt the temptation to put something down. But she was more afraid of betraying her mother’s devotion, so she chose to hold on.

I endured all of Flower Entertainment’s harsh training without a sound.

I followed the trainer’s advice to devote all time to practice except eating and sleeping.

Even though one of the directors of Flower Entertainment gave me a reluctant look and encouraged me with an unpleasant touch, I pretended not to notice and ignored it.

“This debut group consists of Do-young Do, So-hee Cheon, Lee Mi-seong, and Kim Min-ji.”

However, that did not lead to results.

No, there were definitely results. Seo Eun-byul was able to sing higher notes cleanly, her emotional technique also improved, she was able to dance waves more flexibly, and she also mastered powerful popping movements. But that wasn’t enough.

That was the only reason she didn’t make her debut group.

There were only four people who could enter the debut group that Flower was preparing this time. Because of that, the evaluation had to be relative. From that relative baseline, the effort that 5th or 6th place had to put in became meaningless.

Now she has two options left.

There are two ways: leave Flower and explore her new path, or stay and continue her life as a trainee.

When she hesitated, unable to make a clear choice on that question, others began to make their own choices.

“Eunbyeol, I’ll go.”

“… Are you really going to leave?”

“Well, it can’t be helped, right? Since she is already in the process of debuting a girl group, Flower will not be planning her new girl group within 2-3 years. After that time passes, I will be older, so there is a high probability that I will be pushed out of the competition. … For me, this debut group was my last chance.”

“So, what are you going to do when you leave Flower?”

“I don’t know either.”

“… Yes?”

A senior trainee who was eliminated in her debut group said to Seo Eun-byul, who was embarrassed.

“But I know there is no future if I stay here.”

“…”

“I hope you too make choices for your future.”

Seo Eun-byeol couldn’t catch the senior trainee leaving like that. And she couldn’t even follow her as she left.

When Eunbyeol was hesitating at the crossroads of choice, her mother said, ‘Why are you worrying about such a thing?’

“You just dream, I’ll take care of the rest.”

As she said, her mother did everything she could to prevent the wounds caused by another betrayal from seeing into her life. Indeed, she was able to continue her trainee life.

Seo Eun-byeol was grateful for her mother’s dedication. She also thought it was too much. But gradually, she started to notice other things more than those feelings.

Her mother stopped smiling for some time.

The smile she smiled even while living in a sidewalk room and a single room.

Seo Eun-byul couldn’t bear to say that she would quit her trainee life in front of her.

So she stayed at Flower again.

She started holding on once more.

Even in the difficult schedules that others would give up on, and even in the early morning when most of her children chose to act out of luck, she quietly endured as she always had.

“The selected members of this debut group are… “

And a few years later, her name was not included in the debut group selection again

Seo Eun-byeol failed again.

A trainer said to her as she lowered her head and faced the result blankly,

“Maybe you can stay here longer. But I wouldn’t recommend that. … Eunbyeol, you don’t have enough talent, just give up and find something else.”

She asked the trainer with pure curiosity, not negative emotions such as antipathy.

“If I’m not talented, why did you keep me as a trainee for such a long time? Why do you say you can stay again?”

“When I first came in, I thought you had talent, and the reason I stayed was because one of the directors who was able to stay liked you very much.”

“Which one and why?”

The trainer looked down at Seo Eun-byeol and said, as if asking why she was pretending not to know.

“There’s no way you wouldn’t know, right?”

“… Yes?”

“Don’t you know Director Kim?”

At those words, Seo Eun-byeol realized. She moved Kim, throwing her gaze and touch at her, and making this flower feel like a more painful place.

“… “It was just because of that.”

“…”

The funny thing is, the reason she was able to stay here was not because of her hard work or her hidden talents, but because she just persevered.

Even though she knew that, she did not shed tears, get angry, or despair.

There was just a kind of resignation and acceptance that it was just like that. No, there was also some sense of liberation. The end of her hope that it was all over now felt refreshing to her who was so exhausted.

“Mom, I’m quitting being a trainee.”

“… What do you mean?”

“I failed the final test of this debut group. “I’m sorry.”

“…”

“Thank you so much for your support so far. It was embarrassing, but I wanted to repay those feelings, so I did my best. But I think my talent wasn’t enough. “I’m sorry.”

“…”

“I think I’ve had enough dreams. I was satisfied. I was happy. So now, rather than being the recipient of my mother’s sacrifice, I want to help her. I will start a simple part-time job tomorrow. I had an interview today and they told me to show up tomorrow. I may not be trustworthy, but I will slowly become an adult like my mother.”

Seo Eun-byeol conveyed her sincerity purely. But her mother did not react. She just lowered her head and breathed softly.

“… “Mom?”

After a long silence, she said, her mother lifted her haggard face.

“… All you have to do is dream.”

“… Yes?”

“All you have to do is dream!”

Seo Eun-byul’s mother held her tightly

Her hands, which looked old and worn and thin, were full of strength. It was a force that could be considered enough pain.

However, Seo Eun-byeol could not pay any attention to such pain.

The only thing she was aware of was her mother, who was the beginning of her life and who she is now.

“You have to follow your dreams. So you should be happy! … Only then, only then, does what I have done and life has meaning!”

Her mother laughed as she said that. No, she did her best to lift the corners of her mouth to make it look like she was smiling.

“… Please don’t destroy my dream.”

Desperate to look servile.

“…”

In front of her, Eunbyul could no longer say that she would give up being a trainee or an idol.

Seo Eun-byul ran out to the public bathroom outside her house and vomited all day.

***

What is the reason for remaining in the flower?

For what, why, and why, she also couldn’t answer.

Just like an airliner that could not be scrapped even though she realized it was wrong from the start, she also seemed to be a poorly born product that could not be stopped even though she recognized that it was wrong and that it should be scrapped.

She realized late that following her dreams she would not only bring happiness.

Dreams could become shackles. Even if it rusts, rots, and crumbles, it is a shackle that can never be broken.

In the midst of that realization, Seo Eun-byeol just endured, as she always did.

She couldn’t find any meaning. Because that was all she could do.

It was around that time that manager Ban Sang-cheol approached her.

“You obviously know that debuting like this is impossible, right?”

“… But what?”

“I would like to make a suggestion to you. “What would you think if Eunbyeol had the opportunity to debut instead of working part-time for a while?”

“Part-time job?”

“Yes, it’s a very easy job, almost like a part-time job,”

Baek Sang-cheol explained his plans and what he wanted from her one by one.

He mentioned powerful people who are interested in trainees and what they can offer. And they talked about what could be achieved through their cooperation.

Sensing her confusion, her boss and many of the board members even assured her that she would definitely get the price she wanted, as it was a matter of connection. They say they can prove it right away.

“There’s no need to feel guilty, this isn’t just about you doing well. With this, Oh Yuri will be able to join In 11, and by linking up, we will be able to give opportunities to Milkies and other newly debuted children. There are many children who follow you as the eldest, right? If you follow my words, you will become the strength of those juniors. Don’t think too hard. Because this is for everyone.”

She smiled bitterly at Ban Sang-cheol’s coaxing and thoughts.

… That’s a good excuse.

Probably, as Ban Sang-cheol said, everyone will like it. Not only Oh Yuri, who will be in the top 11 of Girls 100, but also her mother, who will be satisfied to see her achieve her dream with the opportunity to debut, and everyone who offered this to her.

All you have to do is close your eyes for a moment.

It wasn’t a big deal. Isn’t this something her mother also experienced?

It may be painful for a moment, but one day she will be able to smile again like her mother did.

I was used to enduring it.

“… “Should I have held on a little longer?”

But she was here.

In a narrow, dark warehouse, their eyes were covered and their hands and feet were tied.

It was the result that I couldn’t bear until the end.

While she was dressing up in the dressing room for her reception, or rather, from the moment she had been dragged here, she remembered the words Oh Yuri had said to her. Warnings about the dangers of this place and the influx of gangsters and drugs. And even though he knows them better than anyone else, he has the pure good will to endure them all and help.

Turned away I didn’t want to be involved. However, I hoped that Oh Yu-ri’s feelings were not just meaningless. So for the first time in her life, she didn’t hold back. She refused the entertainment and attempted to run away.

The result looked like this.

As Bae Sang-cheol said, Oh Yu-ri said,… No, it seems she was a more dangerous person than that.

“What will happen to me… ?” . “You won’t see anything good, right?”

I was anxious. My body was shaking with fear.

To Seo Eun-byeol, who had only faced expected despair, this despair that was difficult to predict even an inch in advance seemed even more frightening.

She took a deep breath to push the fear away. In the way her affectionate child named Oh Yu-ri taught her.

Then I heard the door opening. Seo Eun-byeol focused all of her attention on the sound, her body her rigid with tension.

Jeopuk, Jeopuk.

The footsteps stopped in front of Seo Eun-byeol. And then the blindfold covering her her eyes her she disappeared, and Oh Yuri was seen holding a black electric shock gun in her hand.

“… Glass?”

She said, holding Seo Eun-byeol’s hand hers.

“Let’s jump!”