Chapter 830: A sore loser [1/2]
"Sniff…Sniff…I am sorry Dearest. I didn't mean to break down like this…"
I continued to hug my lovely princess as I gently rubbed her back, "There is nothing to forgive Lilly. Just let it all out. I love you all the same."
"Are you not angry that I complain? You never pushed me to ascend, yet after all that boasting, I now regret and whine like a brat all because I lost my memories," she added between sniffles.
I took my handkerchief and pressed it to her near perfect nose bridge. Lilly blew out the snot into the cloth in reflex. Funnily enough, she was used to being served like this. I folded the handkerchief inward and used a clean side to wipe Lilly's tears.
"Yes, but I am the one to blame. I was the one who gave you that unreasonable order. And I neglected you when you felt your memories disappear. Forgive my incompetence Lilly. I promised you so much but remain a dumb bastard who can only make you cry."
"No, you are not to blame. It's my fault. If I foresaw that conspiracy, you wouldn't have even put in such danger. I led the white guard for years, yet we remained in the dark."
At Lilly's apology I couldn't help but chuckle. When I did, she pouted before joining me after a few moments. She probably also realized how silly we were being. It was like we were having a contest on who was the bigger fuck up. Normally people did the opposite.
Mesmerized by her angelic laughter I drew closer and kissed her lips tenderly. My woman responded to my advances earnestly. Our kiss was short and sweet. I touched my forehead to hers after our lips parted.
"Dearest, I know you are scared. I am too. Knowing that a danger is coming for you girls means I cannot stay still. For that reason alone, I have to get stronger. I am too stupid to understand how hopeless it all is.
"Even if everyone says its it cannot be done. I will try like a dumb motherfucker. Because this is all I can do. I know it's difficult. But do not fear the future. We will create one where we will not die. I cannot do it alone, but if you are with me, anything is possible.
"We will create a future where our children can grow in peace and happiness. If you cannot see it then just follow me. So long as we are together, I know we can do it. When it all ends. We will live in a small house, with our kinds and live happily ever after."
Much like my promises in the beginning, my words barely had merit. We would need to fight terrifying monsters, undead and even demons. I was sure we would end up butting heads with IRIS and Reapers from the other continents. But I was hopeful.
Unlike when I lived and died alone, the future I envisioned with the girls gave me strength. Just imagining them nursing and playing with my future children was enough to make this shit bearable. Funnily enough, I told Roland, Xander and Raymond the same thing.
That I fought Hellsgate not because someone forced me to. But because I wanted to. At the beginning it was so I could like my life to the fullest. Now it was so I could create a future for me and my family.
"That sounds wonderful Dearest. I think if I focus on that, I can bear it."
"Haha, then when they leave for college, we can fuck like rabbits all day, every day."
"Sigh. I knew you would say that Dearest. And the girls keep calling me the pervert."
"What? You don't want to?"
"I-I never said I didn't…"
"I wonder how many we would end up having? I do not think I can stop impregnating you just once or twice." I joked as I nuzzled Lilly in her neck.
"Dearest! Be realistic! You have seven wives! At two children each that would already be fourteen children! Anymore and you will be bound to neglect them."
"I don't think so. I have you after all. Don't you know beautiful their mothers are? I am practically giving gifts to this world! It is my civic duty to make as many babies as possible!"
"Sigh. Somehow, I think you are serious. You are quite obstinate about the most peculiar things. Unyielding like steel. Passionate like a raging fire. Yet to me, you are like a fluffy teddy bear! You bring my heart comfort and give me piece. I wonder why. Discover hidden tales at My Virtual Library Empire
"My own thoughts terrify me, but somehow, when I hear your vision, I feel encouraged. Did you have a new {fate} that I do not know about Dearest? I seem to be like a cult fanatic who is brainwashed by your sweet voice."
"Haha. I think it is the opposite. You are practically the drug that keeps me high all the time. If you ever leave me, I might go into Lilly Withdrawal. So, you have to keep having sex with me at least five times a day otherwise I would just keel over and die."
Lilly then smacked my arm as her cute mouth gaped open, "That was perhaps the stupidest thing I ever heard. Only you would think of such a thing!"
My face kept smiling against my will as I flirted with my Princess. But then she regained her composure as she stood up. The majesty of the 'queen' returned. Figuring it was about time, I also stood up and stretched.
"It is really magical dearest. Earlier my mind was filled with nothing but terrible thoughts. Fear and anxiety nearly crushed my heart. I even began to hyperventilate at one point. Yet just a few minutes with you now change my outlook completely.
"I now think of what names I would give our children. What things I can do to be a better mother for them. It is really peculiar. In the past I would think myself sick when agonizing over a problem. I usually ended up having to rely on wine to calm myself."
Lilly then spun around and placed her hand over her heart.
"The problems I had still remain. Our enemies still lurk in the shadows. Yet where there was fear now there is hope. All because of you Dearest. Thank you. While I still worry. I think I will be okay now. At least I will be fine so long as you remain with me," she confessed as she played with her hair.
"I am glad to hear it. Then all that is left is to prove that I am stronger than you."
"What?"
"{Day by Day}. [Maestro]."
"Dearest, we don't have to fight any longer. I forgive you. There is no need fo…"
"There is," I interjected.
"[Defender]." "[Gladiator]." "[Sky Sentinel]." "[Heavy Gunner]." "[Executioner]." "[Ninja]."
When all my Soul Avatars each invoked a discipline, I felt each body fill up with power.
"Right now, you are scared that I will be defeated by those that will come against us. I need to remind you Lilly. Rather I need to remind everyone here. I am Limitless. Those bastards might be stronger than me today. But give me a week and that will change."
"Hmm. I would have to agree, Dearest. Your growth rate is absurd. Even now your fighting ability is already beyond that of normal Specters. Apart from domains you are arguably already one. Just version 4 of {Limitless} is unfair. And you still have anti-soul weaponry as a new trump card."
"Well, if you add the stuff Carlos said, I still can't get souls from just the air. I mean even Sunday and Tuesday lost to you. Domains are just fucked up," I remarked.
"It is debatable even if you need a domain, Dearest. You hardly ever run out of souls. And you brought up yet another point. It is amazing you convinced the enemy to teach you. More so when the one that did, was part of the Intelligence division of South America."
"Yeah, I lucked out with that one."
"Indeed, you have. However, despite such important information, you shared it freely to not only use but Hellsend."
"It would help everyone thought, they might develop or gain new insights from learning from others. Having stronger Reapers helps our cause greatly."
"That is exactly my point Dearest. Most leaders would not share such information readily. Doing so minimizes the difference between you and them. If you are careless some of our people may betray us one day."