Passion (BL Novel)

"Look at that expression, that face. Hey, hey, straighten up. You look like you're frowning so hard, even the good luck will run away."
A sharp, painful sound echoed against his back. And the back that had been hit so hard really did hurt. Wiping the tears that were welling up in his eyes, Jeong Tae-ui complained to Alta, who was sitting next to him.
"Why hit me? You could just say it!"

"I finally meet a broker that's hard to get in touch with, and you're sitting there with a face like you just ate shit! What if he sees your face, gets uncomfortable, and ends the deal? You might not care if we don't buy the goods, but I might need to contact this person again sometime!"
"Okay, okay, I got it. Let's lower the volume."
Jeong Tae-ui added, "For your sake, since you might need to contact him often," and picked up his tea cup. From the steaming cup of tea, a familiar scent wafted up. It was a floral scent.

"This is Gimu. ...It’s the same as the one Shin-ru made for me before."
Alta, who thought all black tea was the same and had ordered it without much thought, raised an eyebrow at Jeong Tae-ui’s sudden murmuring. He didn’t even know what had been ordered; it was just tea, after all. Muttering that it didn’t matter, Alta shrugged his shoulders. Meanwhile, Jeong Tae-ui gazed at the red tea in his cup. It smelled like the same tea Shin-ru had made for him.
It reminded him again. Every little detail like this brought back memories of Shin-ru. And whenever he thought of Shin-ru, he felt down.

Seeing Jeong Tae-ui’s expression darken again, Alta quickly raised his hand. At that moment, Jeong Tae-ui hurriedly forced a neutral expression.
"What’s going on with you lately? Did you confess to Shin-ru and get rejected? No, that’s not it. You said you were meeting him for dinner tonight. So why are you walking around looking so down?"
"Uhm... Is it really that obvious?"

"Yes, it’s obvious. Right now, it’s really obvious!"
Alta shouted with a sulky face. Jeong Tae-ui rubbed his face with both hands, feeling embarrassed. He then looked around to change the subject. The broker, who had received a phone call earlier and excused himself to go outside, hadn’t returned yet, and his conversation seemed to be taking longer than expected.
The hotel was near the coast of Kowloon in Hong Kong. The alleys split into many directions, like a maze, with shabby buildings lined up in between. It was at the edge of an old commercial street, where several prominent hotels stood in competition. Jeong Tae-ui and Alta were sitting a few floors below the top floor lounge. Even though it was the weekend and there should have been many people, it wasn’t crowded, likely because they were there at an awkward time before dinner.

Seeing Jeong Tae-ui being scolded by Morra, which seemed pitiful from the side, Tau asked Alta to introduce him to a firearms broker. Jeong Tae-ui didn’t actually think he was being scolded—if anything, he’d like to argue that he was the one scolding Morra, as Morra suggested—but in any case, Jeong Tae-ui had been thinking of getting a new Colt after his old one was taken and thrown away. So, he gladly nodded at Alta’s suggestion and went with him.
The broker they met in Hong Kong said that while the model of Colt Jeong Tae-ui wanted was difficult to obtain right away, he could get it for him. During their conversation, the broker suddenly had to step away for a phone call, and that was when he left.
Jeong Tae-ui turned his head and glanced at the window right next to their table. Far below, he could see the narrow sea, and in the middle of it was Hong Kong Island. Shin-ru must be there by now. He had said he was meeting a friend who lived on the island, and they would meet for dinner later after doing their respective things.

Smiling brightly, Shin-ru shyly said, "Then, see you in front of the Peninsula later… I’ve made a reservation," and Jeong Tae-ui had awkwardly nodded in response. But the moment Shin-ru disappeared from his sight, Jeong Tae-ui sank into a pit of gloom.
It wasn’t that he disliked Shin-ru. In fact, he felt a bit regretful and sorry. At least on that day, Shin-ru had gone to find Ilay of his own will, and it was because of him that Shin-ru had gone. That fact made Jeong Tae-ui feel down. Ilay, Shin-ru, this situation—it was all gloomy.
But Jeong Tae-ui knew it wouldn’t help to keep digging into it. After all, he would never see Ilay again. The obstacle was gone, and now he just had to go around happily with Shin-ru, hand in hand.
Still.

Something didn’t feel right. It was like there was a layer of fog in his heart, weighing him down with sadness.
"Shin-ru..."
"I brought this. Oh no. If you're going to be like this, don’t ever come with me again!"

Alta, who seemed tired of it all, gritted his teeth. Jeong Tae-ui, with sad eyes, stared vacantly at Hong Kong Island across from him. Shin-ru must still be there. Or maybe, since the time they were supposed to meet was approaching, he had already crossed over. Or maybe he was on the ferry.
Shin-ru had shyly smiled and said he had booked a hotel. Jeong Tae-ui didn’t have to wonder what that meant. He had come to Hong Kong feeling down, even taking a moment to refresh himself before coming.
But he wondered if it would be alright. It had been a while since they’d shared a bed, and he wondered if Shin-ru would be safe. Besides, Shin-ru must have been seriously injured the night before, when Ilay had left. It must have healed by now, but he couldn’t have been unscathed after receiving that terrible injury. Would it be alright to embrace someone who had been so hurt?

If Alta or the other colleagues heard about this, they would look at him with pity, but the more he thought about it, the darker Jeong Tae-ui’s heart became.
"You don’t need to worry. There’s no one to get in the way now. Just be happy."
Jeong Tae-ui muttered to himself, trying to comfort his heart, and sighed. When he absentmindedly turned his gaze, the man sitting alone at the table next to theirs caught his attention.

He didn’t even know why he was looking at the man. He was just an ordinary man. Dressed in a well-tailored suit, holding a fountain pen like an accessory, the man was deep in thought. There was nothing particularly special about him. And yet, there was something oddly familiar about him, making Jeong Tae-ui wonder why he was drawn to him.
"Hey, Alta."
"What?"

Alta, looking sulky, didn’t even glance over. Jeong Tae-ui pulled on his ear without hesitation and quietly asked.
"Do you know the man sitting next to us?"
Hearing his low voice, Alta, sensing something unusual, glanced at the man beside them. Trying not to be noticed, Alta scanned the man from head to toe and tilted his head.

"Well, I don’t know him, but if he’s built well and looks that decent, I probably wouldn’t forget seeing him. I don’t know him. Why? Is there a problem?"
"Uhm... No, I just feel like I’ve seen him somewhere before. But maybe I’m just imagining things."
Alta’s words made Jeong Tae-ui realize that while the man was ordinary, if they had ever spoken, he wouldn’t have easily forgotten his impression. Maybe he had seen someone similar, or perhaps he was just mistaken.

Jeong Tae-ui tilted his head and glanced at the paper the man had spread out on the table. From a distance, it was hard to make out the details, but it looked like some sort of blueprint. Some parts were detailed, while others seemed hastily drawn, but there were dense, almost scribbled notes next to the design.
Jeong Tae-ui stared absently at the blueprint-like paper and suddenly thought, "Ah, I’ve seen this before." The paper, which seemed to have a messy chemical formula or equations written on it, looked familiar.
"Well... I must be seeing things. Only Rae’s older brother would draw and write like that."

Muttering that, Jeong Tae-ui stared at the paper with little interest when suddenly, the man looked up. Their eyes met.
Through the thin silver-framed glasses, the man’s indifferent gaze came toward him. Jeong Tae-ui stared at him for a few seconds, feeling awkward, but didn’t look away.
It seemed like he had never met this man before. Even after locking eyes for a few seconds, Jeong Tae-ui couldn’t remember anything. The only feeling was that the man reminded him of someone he had seen before, as if there was someone resembling him in the corner of his forgotten memories.

The man, still with an indifferent face, stared at Jeong Tae-ui for a while, then furrowed his brows slightly and seemed about to say something.
But at that moment, the broker returned after finishing his long call. He awkwardly smiled, as if feeling guilty for having left them waiting for so long, and tried to explain himself.
"Sorry to have kept you waiting so long. A big shot came into Hong Kong yesterday. Someone like me would have a hard time meeting him, but my brother set up a meeting with him."

"Oh, really? From the way you’re speaking, he must be quite a big deal. Why did he come here?"
"It’s a big deal. It looks like he’s planning to open a large branch here in Hong Kong. Originally, the company only had one main office, but now they’re opening their first branch here. It’s a huge topic of interest in this industry. Everyone’s wondering who will manage the branch..."
"Wow, then maybe meeting with your brother..."

"Well, who knows, but it might not be unrelated."
"That’s incredible!"
Jeong Tae-ui heard Alta’s endless flattery from the side, not paying much attention. He then shifted his gaze back to the man at the next table.

The man was still eyeing Jeong Tae-ui with suspicion but said nothing and returned to looking down at the paper on the table. He occasionally scribbled a few words on another sheet of paper, seeming like he was solving a difficult puzzle, similar to Morra.
But still, the drawing looked like it was made by Rae’s older brother.
Staring at the drawing, Jeong Tae-ui thought for a moment. He almost considered asking if the broker knew anything about Rae’s brother’s whereabouts but shook his head. Even if that drawing was his brother’s, so what? Where he was or what he was doing didn’t really matter. And Jeong Tae-ui couldn’t even be sure if the man would know anything about it.

Jeong Tae-ui turned back to the broker, who had started talking again about the Colt. What was important to him right now was not some blueprint that might have been drawn by his brother. His brother would manage just fine wherever he was.
What Jeong Tae-ui needed to focus on was the Colt to return to the annoying Morra and the upcoming meeting with Shin-ru.
 

The plan for the evening, originally, was to have dinner at the hotel’s restaurant, then head to the bar for a light drink, and finally, with the help of a slight buzz—since doing it sober might be difficult—head to the room. But that plan was shattered starting at the restaurant. While waiting for the meal to arrive, Shin-ru’s face became so pale it was pitiful.
When Jeong Tae-ui met Shin-ru in front of the hotel earlier, his face had already looked bad. During the walk to the restaurant, Jeong Tae-ui had asked six times if he was okay. Each time, Shin-ru had firmly shaken his head and assured him he was fine.
No matter how much Jeong Tae-ui looked at him, Shin-ru’s complexion was so pale that it seemed like he would faint any minute. But Shin-ru stubbornly insisted on continuing, making it hard for Jeong Tae-ui to suggest going back. Furthermore, it seemed Shin-ru had really been looking forward to tonight. He wasn’t wearing his usual uniform. Instead, he wore a neat knit that looked as though it was bought just yesterday, with perfectly pressed pants and a shirt with no wrinkles except for the collar. It was simple yet sophisticated, and every detail seemed carefully thought out. Even his hair had a soft, almost rustling look.

It wasn’t much different from the usual casual wear, but the attention to detail was evident in every part of his outfit. Even his hair looked like it had been styled with care.
At the restaurant, Shin-ru looked like he was trying to force himself to eat. Jeong Tae-ui couldn’t bear seeing him like that and asked again, "Are you sure you’re alright?" But Shin-ru smiled faintly and insisted, "I’m fine."
Still, Jeong Tae-ui couldn’t shake the feeling that something was off. He had wanted to make Shin-ru comfortable, but the situation wasn’t unfolding as he’d hoped.

In the end, they left the restaurant without much of a meal. As they walked back toward the hotel, Jeong Tae-ui quietly observed Shin-ru’s condition. He noticed that Shin-ru’s usual energy, usually so vibrant, had been replaced by a quiet, almost unnoticeable weariness.
The evening had started off with anticipation, but now, everything felt empty.
"Are you really okay?" Jeong Tae-ui asked softly, stopping before the door to his room.

Shin-ru gave a slight nod. "I’m fine, really."
But Jeong Tae-ui could tell by the way Shin-ru was standing, the way his shoulders drooped slightly, that something was definitely wrong. It wasn’t like Shin-ru to pretend everything was fine when it clearly wasn’t.
Jeong Tae-ui hesitated, his hand lingering on the door handle. He wanted to say more, to press Shin-ru to be honest with him, but something held him back. Was it fear? Fear of pushing too hard, of discovering something he wasn’t ready to hear?

Finally, Jeong Tae-ui stepped into the room and let out a quiet breath. "Alright. We’ll take it easy tonight. No more pushing yourself."
Shin-ru entered after him, a faint smile on his lips. But that smile didn’t reach his eyes.
 

Jeong Tae-ui was momentarily captivated by Shin-ru, who was dressed up so beautifully without a trace of makeup, but soon became worried when he saw her pale face, and asked if she should just go back.
However, Shin-ru shook her head.
'I'm a little nervous. It's my first time meeting my brother like this... ... , so that's why. I'm really okay.'

Jeong Tae-ui followed Shin-ru, who was walking into the hotel first, and blushed slightly. He didn't know what he had been worrying about until now, with this cute and lovely young man.
Shin-ru hadn't changed at all. As far as Jeong Tae-ui could see, he had always been a gentle, affectionate, and kind person. The way he blushed and smiled shyly when he made eye contact with Jeong Tae-ui, and the way he blushed and shyly held Jeong Tae-ui's hand, had not changed at all.
Jeong Tae-ui followed Shin-ru, blaming himself for being depressed without knowing the exact reason.

Then, there was a commotion inside the restaurant.
While waiting for the food to come out, Shin-ru, who had been getting pale and even pale, finally grabbed his mouth and ran to the bathroom before the appetizer even came out. Of course, Jung-tae was surprised and followed him. There was no way to look back.
As soon as he entered the bathroom, Shin-ru grabbed the toilet and vomited loudly. He kept vomiting until only the stomach acid came up sourly, and when Jung-tae followed him in, he pushed Jung-tae out the door, saying, “I don’t want you to see me like this,” even though his face was pale. Suddenly, Jung-tae was left guarding the bathroom door.
He heard his distressed voice several times, and when the voice died down, Jung-tae asked if he was okay, but he didn’t hear an answer. When he kicked open the bathroom door in surprise and jumped in, Shin-ru was lying there listlessly, and Jeong-tae-ui skipped dinner and alcohol and immediately helped Shin-ru up to the room he had reserved.
And now, Shin-ru was lying there listlessly, as if he had fainted on the bed, and Jeong-tae-ui was sitting next to Shin-ru after washing and drying his dirty clothes and belongings.
"……."
He stared blankly at Shin-ru's face, which was sleeping with his eyes closed. Fortunately, the color had returned to his face. Now that he was feeling better, he didn't show any signs of distress and was sleeping soundly.
Hoo, Jeong-tae-ui let out a sigh and scanned Shin-ru with his gaze. There was a little bit of vomit on his clothes, so he took them off as soon as he entered the room. He had laid her on the bed, leaving only her underwear on, so he could clearly see her slender and smooth arms and legs and her well-proportioned body. If I did well today, I would have hugged this body. It turned out like this, so today was hard, but if I had another chance, I would be able to hug it. Jeong Tae-ui quietly held Shin-ru’s hand. Looking at it like this, this guy is still a man. The shape of the muscles attached to his slender body clearly
showed off his own gender. What a pretty body.
“How can you make people expect so much and then fall asleep, you punk?”
Jeong Tae-ui playfully whispered and gently pressed the tip of Shin-ru’s nose. Then he chuckled and lay down next to him. The bed was wide enough for the two of them to lie down on.
Actually, I wasn’t that disappointed. It was not that I didn’t look forward to tonight, even though I was depressed, but even though I had such an unexpected shock, I didn’t feel as disappointed as I thought. Rather, I felt sorry for Shin-ru, who was suffering with a pale face. I didn’t necessarily want to sleep. Just the warm hand in my hand was good. Oh Soon-do-sun, Oh Soon-do-sun, … … If I see him like this, my uncle or colleagues would all laugh at me.

Jeong Tae-ui turned to his side and quietly watched Shin-ru. The way his cheeks, which were half-asleep, were flushed and blushed was adorable. The way his lips shyly called Tae-ui’s brother was adorable, too. Oh my, this cute guy, he said, and pinched his cheek.
It had been almost a month since the joint training ended. Since that day, he had never had a proper conversation with Shin-ru face to face. It was because he had been extremely busy since the vacation after the training. In particular, the instructors in the Asia branch were busy because the position of the instructor who had died was vacant, and they were still busy with the follow-up work and new personnel.
When the instructors were busy, the instructors who supported their work were also busy. So, they could meet briefly and say a few words, but they could not sit side by side and talk properly.

Of course, the topic of Illei had never come up. There was no reason to bring up the topic, but he also didn’t want to bring it up. Whenever he thought of Il-lay, he remembered the way he had made Shin-ru sit on his lap that last night. That cold and icy look.
Shin-ru didn’t bring up the story either. Perhaps he didn’t know that Jeong-tae-ui had seen Shin-ru and Il-lay that day. Jeong-tae-ui didn’t necessarily want to say that he had seen them either.
What surprised Jeong-tae-ui was not the way Shin-ru had given his body to Il-lay. Rather, the way he had spoken coldly and fiercely, and that fierce look, was even more surprising. It was because it was a side he had never shown in front of himself and could never have imagined.

However, everyone has different sides. He has affectionate sides, cruel sides, childish sides, and friendly sides. So if Shin-ru showed affectionate sides to him, then Shin-ru was affectionate to him. That was enough.
Jeong-tae-ui suddenly tilted his head. Everyone has different sides, but if that's the case, what about Ilay, that man called Ilay Regrow?
In Jeong Tae-ui's eyes, he was a cruel, heartless, cheerful, and funny man. He had aspects that seemed incompatible, and to others, he was a scary, cruel, and ferocious man. However, somewhere Jeong Tae-ui didn't know, there might be someone who thought of him as a kind and gentle person.

Ilay Regrow, a kind and gentle person. ... ... He couldn't imagine it.
Jeong Tae-ui shook his head to erase him from his mind, and he heard a deep breathing sound next to him. When he turned his head, Shin-ru blinked and opened his eyes. He stared blankly at the ceiling, not knowing what was going on, and then turned his head to the side. His eyes met Jeong Tae-ui's.
When their eyes met, Shin-ru blinked his eyes with a sleepy face, and then suddenly smiled brightly.

"Wow... It's Tae-i hyung...."
He spoke in a sleepy, childish voice, as if he were dreaming. Tae-yi followed along with a smile.
"Wow... It's Shin-ru... "
If someone saw this, they would have scratched their arms and looked at him, but whatever. It's just the two of them anyway, and they're not doing anything bad.

Jeong-tae-ui blushed slightly and whispered as he brushed the hair that had fallen on Shin-ru's cheek. Shin-ru, still half-asleep, laughed hehehe and rubbed his cheek against his hand.
Somehow, his eyes were slightly open, and his voice was also, he seemed half-asleep. Did he think he was dreaming? But even so, he was cute in his own way.
He had already given up on making history tonight. It was okay to lie in the same bed and play lightly like this. Jeong-tae-ui smiled broadly and stroked Shin-ru's hair. Shin-ru laughed angrily. "Hyung. ……Tae-i hyung."

Shin-ru muttered as he reached out. The finger that seemed to touch the edge of Jeong-tae's chin moved to his lips. The movement of the finger that stroked Jeong-tae's lips while touching his mouth was subtly erotic. Jeong-tae stopped, saying, "Uh," but didn't block Shin-ru.
The finger touching his lips felt soft and good.
Shin-ru, who had been stroking his lips for a long time with his fingertips, raised his body at some point. Then, he climbed on top of Jeong-tae and overlapped their lips. Jeong-tae's eyes widened. The person on top of him, hugging his head and overlapping his lips was definitely Shin-ru.

His tongue dug into his gaping teeth. The way his tongue flicked and licked inside his mouth was just like a cat's.
Jeong-tae was a little taken aback, but soon relaxed his body. I can't blame him for doing that when he's asleep. I didn't even think about criticizing him. Rather, I found it so adorable and cute that I swallowed a smile inside my mouth. But there was a problem. The kiss wasn't just an adorable and cute act.
Shin-ru, who had unbuttoned Jeong-tae's clothes one by one and taken off his shirt, was no longer a sleepy child. With a faint flush on his face, he buried his face in Jeong-tae's bare chest with awkward excitement. He licked it again like a cat.

"Shin-ru, …… are you okay?"
Jeong-tae was a little flustered and called Shin-ru's name without realizing it, but in this situation, it was difficult to tell him to stop, so he said something else. Shin-ru kissed Jeong-tae's ear and whispered. I'm completely fine.
Jeong-tae was embarrassed inside, but he smiled bitterly and raised his hand at this lovely young man who hung on his neck and kissed him repeatedly. If Shin-ru hadn't collapsed with a pale face, today would have been like this. There was a slight accident on the way, but he just returned safely on the path he had originally intended to take.

"Shin-ru, I …… haven't been here in a long time, so I'm not very confident."
Jeong Tae-ui hugged Shin-ru and whispered. Shin-ru smiled.
"It's okay. It's been a while since I've seen you. In fact, I'm not very confident either."

The image of Shin-ru sharing a bed with Illei a while ago flashed through his mind for a moment, but Jeong Tae-ui quickly erased it. What was so important about that? Jeong Tae-ui could accept lying to avoid being hated by someone he liked. It was a little annoying, so he bit Shin-ru's ear with a smile.
Jeong Tae-ui kissed Shin-ru's cheek, who said he was not confident. In any case, he should take the lead as he was at least a year older and had at least one more experience. Furthermore, he had to be extra careful not to strain Shin-ru's body, so he didn't let him get scared or feel tired.
Jeong Tae-ui tried to gently lay Shin-ru down. However, for some reason, Shin-ru didn't get off Jeong Tae-ui's body. He lay down on top of him and stroked his chest from the nape of his neck.

… … .Do you like the climax? Well, come to think of it, it was the climax when I did it with Illei too. I don’t hate it either, but it would be harder to be careful not to get hurt if I did that.
I can’t help it, I should try hard, Jeong Tae-ui thought, stroking Shin-ru’s head, who was trembling his chest. But in fact, he should be the one caressing him, he thought, and Shin-ru suddenly bit his nipple. It wasn’t hard enough to make him scream, but it was hard enough to startle him, and Jeong Tae-ui flinched. Shin-ru noticed Jeong Tae-ui’s presence and raised his head.
“Doesn’t it feel good?”

“Huh?”
“Ah……. Hyung, you haven’t touched this part yet……. It feels good when it becomes sensitive. It will become sensitive after doing it several times, so just take it slow. I’ll change you. Don’t worry, just leave it to me.” Shin-ru smiled and gently sucked on her nipple. While rubbing the other side with his fingertips, he stroked her stomach. From her stomach to her waist, and then back to her lower stomach.
Jung-tae's earlobes felt hot at the unfamiliar sensation. They say that kids these days are different from our time, that they can feel the generation gap even with just a few years, that they can feel the generation gap even with just a few years, but there's definitely something bold about them, even though they're only a few years apart.

Jung-tae blushed awkwardly, but soon let out a sigh and laughed. He couldn't just sit there and play when you're working so hard. Jung-tae gently ran his hand from Shin-ru's thigh to his butt. Then Shin-ru burst into laughter.
"Hyung, it tickles, it tickles. Ahaha, it's okay, hyung, so stay still. It'll get hard soon, so I'll do it for you for now."
"…….……. No, it won't get hard at all……. It's easy for you, so what." He could easily support Shinru's weight. Besides, if it was a riding position, it wouldn't be that hard for him. Or maybe he wanted some strange position that wasn't a riding position, and that Jeong Tae-ui didn't even know about.

Jeong Tae-ui felt uneasy for a moment, but soon laughed. Since it was a body-to-body conversation, he could figure it out slowly. At that moment, Shinru, who had gone down to Jeong Tae-ui's stomach, smiled slightly at Jeong Tae-ui's thing that was moving its head. Then, he grabbed the thing with both hands and put the tip in his mouth in one go.
Jeong Tae-ui was so surprised that he almost jumped up. When Jeong Tae-ui tried to get up, Shinru whispered in a hoarse voice.
"Hold on, hold on. Hyung. ……Have you never done it before? It's okay. Just stay still. I won't ask you to do it, hyung, today. I'll make you feel good." Jung Tae-ui looked at Shin-ru, who seemed excited, and eventually shed his vain pretense. After all, honesty is the best.

"No, it's good that you're being proactive, and I'm grateful, but I want to do it too. Besides, you said it's been a while. Then you should untie it in advance. Otherwise, it'll be hard. It won't go in well……"
Jung Tae-ui stroked Shin-ru's head as if he found it cute and said that. At that moment, Shin-ru, who was licking Jung Tae-ui's thing in his mouth, stopped. Then he quietly raised his gaze while still holding it in his mouth. He blinked while looking at Jung Tae-ui with a strange look.
"I also prepared lubricant. Come here, I'll do it for you."

"……."
Shin-ru spat out Jung Tae-ui's thing without saying a word. Then, as if he was flustered, he wiped the liquid flowing down his mouth with his thumb, lost in thought.
"…… Tae-ui hyung."

"Huh?"
"Over there……"
"Why."
Seeing Shin-ru hesitating despite seeming to want to say something, Jeong-tae-ui quickly asked if there was something he didn't like but /N_o_v_e_l_i_g_h_t/ couldn't bring himself to say. Although he was a little excited right now, if Shin-ru suddenly got scared and said to do it next time, he would gladly back down.

However, Shin-ru didn't look scared or afraid. He looked at Jeong-tae-ui's expression with an ambiguous expression as if he was embarrassed, and carefully opened his mouth.
"I... I've slept with a man before... I told you, right?"
"Uh, yeah. …… Ah. If you don't feel like it, I'm fine, so just tell me. You can just sleep like this. There are many cases where people don't want to do it when they actually try. Don't feel pressured. You can be comfortable."

"... Can I be comfortable?"
"Of course."
Jeong-tae-ui laughed. Did Shin-ru think that he would force him to do something he didn't want to do? If he said no, he would gladly take the item even in a situation where he would be so excited that he would turn around if he didn’t ejaculate right away. Although he wasn’t very confident.

Shin-ru looked at Jeong-tae-ui with an embarrassed expression. His face looked very troubled for some reason. Then, as if he had made up his mind, he hesitated and asked again while watching Jeong-tae-ui’s expression.
“Then, I’ll be comfortable……?”
“Of course. It’s a burden to you, so you should be comfortable.”

“…….”
Shin-ru didn’t say anything else. He looked away as if he was embarrassed, then wiped his mouth with his hand nervously. However, when he looked back at Jeong-tae-ui again, his embarrassed expression was no longer there.
At that moment, Jeong-tae-ui paused.

Again. A face that looked unfamiliar somewhere. However, now that he had seen it several times, it wasn’t that unfamiliar, and Shin-ru was looking at Jeong-tae-ui with that face. It was different from what he had seen before. It was a slightly languid yet sexy face. The moment I saw him, my heart raced.
"Hyung, please spread your legs for a moment. It's a little uncomfortable."
Shin-ru, who was lying on top of Jeong-tae-ui, suddenly patted Jeong-tae-ui's thigh and said. It seemed like he was uncomfortable sitting on top of him. Feeling like a kitten trying to tease him with a toy, Jeong-tae-ui smiled and spread his legs gently. Shin-ru settled in between them.

By the way, I should untie Shin-ru first. It would definitely hurt if I just put it in... ... But when I think about it, Shin-ru walked around the next day without showing any signs of fatigue even after putting Illei's monstrous thing in. Maybe he has some kind of know-how to take care of his body.
Jeong-tae-ui gently kissed Shin-ru's head as he bit his neck hard under his chin.
And he gently stroked his shoulder. As expected, his skin was smooth and soft. That was it. Shin-ru, who had casually raised and folded Jeong-tae's legs, lowered his hand and touched the inside of Jeong-tae's thigh.
"……?!"

Shin-ru's hand went even further inward, not caring about Jeong-tae's momentary pause. And soon stopped in the middle. The fingers that seemed to be talking slightly pressed the middle. The fingertips dug in with a strange sensation that they had never experienced before.
"Wait!!!"
Jeong-tae suddenly got up. Shin-ru, who had been clinging to Jeong-tae's collarbone, looked at him in surprise. However, Jeong-tae looked at Shin-ru more embarrassed than Shin-ru.

"There……."
Do kids these days caress that place too? No, but usually it's the opposite. He should have loosened Shin-ru's lower body, but this was just like… … . At that moment, Jeong-tae's gaze turned downward to Shin-ru. The thing that was already high enough to rise was shaking and was approaching right in front of Jeong Tae-ui's buttocks. When Jeong Tae-ui looked at Shin-ru with a confused face, Shin-ru looked a little flustered, but soon smiled shyly as usual and kissed Jeong Tae-ui.
"Hyung, it's okay. I won't hurt you."

"What?!" Jeong Tae-ui shouted. His voice flipped over because he was so surprised. Shin-ru was startled for a moment, and then his spirits died down. He muttered while looking at Jeong Tae-ui's face with a gloomy face.
"You can take it easy... "