Chapter 888: Ignorance Isn't Bliss (2)
At night, when the lair quiets and Tiamat walks the deeper halls like a patient tide, Luna and I sit with our backs to a warm crystal pillar and share the kind of quiet that has a pulse. Once, she puts my head in her lap again—'optimal,' she says, with a chin tilt that dares me to tease—and I pretend to be asleep so she can brush hair from my eyes without getting embarrassed.
On the fourth day, Tiamat throws a straight line. I'm there before the line arrives, not because I'm faster, but because I finally accept that she isn't hiding a trick in the simple ones. My parry is clean; my counter is cleaner; Hollow Eclipse rides the edge as a short, brutal truth instead of a speech. She taps it aside, but the floor under her foot admits it misjudged friction. She adjusts. I grin. She pretends not to see.
On the sixth, she traps my blade with a wrist and a thought. I let go of the hilt instead of wrestling for it and turn the empty hand into a zero-inch punch with a slice packed inside. It doesn't scratch her chin, but it makes her tilt her head. Luna claps once, too loud, then clamps her hand over her mouth as if applause might offend a dragon.
On the seventh, I overreach. I know it the instant before I do it and I do it anyway because the body remembers old lies. Tiamat's response is light—barely a touch to my chest—and I fold around it like paper. The room reels. The Phylactery Meridian drinks the death before it can form and gives it back to my muscles as heat; I lie on the floor and stare at the ceiling and laugh at myself because the other choice is self-pity and I'm bored of that flavor.
"Idiot," Luna says, kneeling, voice full of love disguised as annoyance.
"Your idiot," I say, and she goes red precisely to the degree that makes my chest hurt in a way no light can fix.
Tiamat watches all of this with the bland patience of mountains. Then, out of nowhere: "What will you do when the last cult is ash?"
I blink sweat out of my eyes. "Sleep."
"Liar."
"Eat."
"Closer."
I look at Luna because I don't want to look at myself. "Live," I say finally. "With them. With her. With… all of it." I don't say 'with the truth,' because that fight is a different lesson, and the teacher I need for it is the one refusing to speak.
"Ignorance isn't bliss," I tell Luna later, when the lair is low light and our hands have found each other again. "It's chains. I'll break every one. I'll kill Jack, burn his rot, tear up the roots, and then I'll find what Tiamat is hiding if I have to cut the sky open."
She lays her head on my shoulder, weight gentle and absolute. "Then I'll be beside you when you do."
We don't kiss. We don't need to. The promise sits between us like a small, bright fire.
Training keeps taking and giving. My footwork turns from clever to correct. Tempest Dance loses flourishes and finds speed. Spectral Sword stops being a magic trick I play on my own reflection and becomes a catalog of consequences I am finally quick enough to choose from. The CQC chain stops trying to be six different languages and starts being accents of the same voice; Arc Hook Spiral draws a shape that Ground Reversal Stomp understands; Phantom Step Knee appears where Flicker Palm has made space; the one-inch and zero-inch stop competing and simply arrive when asked.
Luna adjusts the way she heals me. Less force, more breath. She lets the body fix what it can fix if it is told it is allowed to, and only fixes what it cannot. She lectures me on not using the Meridian like a spare life I can spend on stupidity; I promise to listen; I break the promise the next day; she glares; I apologize; she forgives me because forgiveness is her first worst habit and caution is her second.
"You always pretend you're made of steel," she says, half-asleep against my chest. "But steel needs holding while it cools."
"I thought you said you learned lap pillows from watching rabbits," I murmur, because teasing her is a drug.
Her ears go pink. "Shut up."
Valeria learns my pauses and starts waking a breath earlier so her armor arrives before the blow, not after. Erebus reduces the Domain footprint so it slides into the lair's geometry without complaint; the Choir sings low, the Engines gulp fewer sparks and hold them longer. They are both proud when Tiamat has to shift a foot instead of a toe. I'm proud too.
Between beatings I message home again. Stella sends a photo of a lopsided pancake and the words "I made it Daddy it is terrible" and I nearly cry laughing in a dragon's house. I tell her it looks perfect and that perfection tastes like practice. Rose sends a blade emoji and a heart. Cecilia sends a page of notes on my stance from a video I didn't know someone took. Rachel sends "drink water" and a threat disguised as a smiley face. I drink water. I smile into the rim.
On the tenth day, Tiamat stops mid-lesson, looks at my grip, and says, like a weather report: "You're ready to hit me for real."
"I've been trying to hit you for real," I say, honest.
"No," she says. "You've been trying not to disappoint me."
She's right. It stings. I let the sting tell me where to put my weight.
When the round starts, I don't try to be brilliant. I walk into her space with a single clean idea and I don't decorate it. She reaches to take the idea away. I let her, then take it back without arguing. The blade turns. Hollow Eclipse comes down—not as a sermon but as a sentence. It doesn't cut her. It moves her coat.
Luna claps once, quiet this time, and doesn't hide it.
We stop when my vision tunnels and the ceiling starts pretending to tilt. Luna's hands glow. Tiamat folds her arms and pretends she isn't the tiniest bit pleased.
I lean my head back against the warm crystal and let my eyes close as the pain steps back again. "I'll kill Jack," I say into the quiet. "I'll wipe the Kin. I'll find the Fallen. I'll pull their teeth out of the world. And then I'll pry the truth out of this place if I have to break my nails on the hinges."
Luna's fingers thread through mine. "Then you'll sleep," she says.
"Maybe," I say. "For a week."
"For a day," she says, because she knows me better than I do.
Tiamat's footsteps recede. The lair breathes. My body stops remembering each blow individually and starts filing them as lessons instead of insults. I tilt my head and press my nose to Luna's hair. She doesn't move away. Her heartbeat answers mine like a metronome trusting the song.
I don't trust Tiamat. Not yet. I don't forgive myself. Not yet. I don't know the truth. Not yet. But the distance between 'not yet' and 'now' feels smaller than it did when I walked in here, and that is the only currency I respect.
Tomorrow she'll break me again. Tomorrow Luna will put me back together. Tomorrow I will stand up faster. Tomorrow I will draw a red thread half a hair deeper on the wrist of a dragon.
I close my eyes. I don't fall asleep. I rest in the shape of someone who intends to.