The miracle mate

We are going in too many stores, each too extravagant for me. Mary found at least 5 outfits, but she could only afford one. She found a cute mid length dress, blue as the clearest sky, that sparkles like crazy. Of course, with the biggest cleavage I ever seen. With her blond hair, long legs and light blue eyes, she'll be dashing.

She also made me try 4 thousands outfits, but nothing gave me joy. I didn't even know if I wanted a dress, jeans, skirt or shorts. And also, I didn't have a lot of money, and some clothes at home. I don't know what was the problem with my clothes. Mary always saying that my clothes are boring. I find them practical. They are gray or black usually, I can move in them and they are comfortable. I have one evening dress that I use at every gathering. Nothing wrong with that.

Anyway, at the end of the Main Street, we found a new cute little store. They had a lot of things. I was pleased to see that they also had a section selling knives. I wouldn't have mix clothes and knives, but hell, I wasn't complaining. So shiny. I wanted them all. After a while, I saw it.

THE dress.

It was the most beautiful dress I had ever seen. It was midnight blue, small silver rings on the straps. It has a cleavage a bit too deep for my liking, and openings on the sides, it was snug, yet drapy and flowy after the hips. When the girl gave me my size, I saw that there was tiny moon prints on it. I tried it on immediately.

It felt like butter on me.

« OH MY GODDES! You NEED to buy it. You are gorgeous! »

« Thanks Mary, but it's very expensive, I'm not sure I should… »

« Ah come on! You never indulge, I know you have some economy! Buy it! »

I bit my lips, looking in the mirror. She was right, I had a bit. Enough for the dress but then I would have to be cautious.

Fuck it. I never do anything for myself and I am thrilled to go on Saturday. I want to feel beautiful, and I want to be careless for once in my freaking life.

I quickly change before I change my mind and go to the register. I pay it cash and the girl give me my bag.

« It was a really good choice! I saw you in it earlier, you looked like the Moon Goddes herself! »

« RIGHTTTT!? She was stunning! », Mary said, pushing me with her hips and looking at me.

« Jeez, thank you! I don't know what to say. ». I added an embarrassed laugh and felt my face burning.

« No problem! Do you want to check for some shoes while you are there? I have some that would match perfectly! ». She started to go around the counter, but I raised my hands so she stopped.

« Oh, Euhm, no it's ok actually! I won't be wearing shoes. »

It was at this moment that I realized, she was human. She couldn't possibly understand why I wouldn't have shoes on for the gathering. She didn't know that it was to connect with nature, with the earth, and therefore with the Moon Goddess. Our worlds were so different, and yet we are living together in the same city, eating the same food, buying the same clothes. I can't believe we are now at peace with each other, the past being exactly that, the past. 

With an awkward smile, Mary and I went out of the shop. Outside, she burst out laughing, pushing me dramatically. 

« You should've seen your face!!! » 

I pushed her back, imitating her face with exaggeration. I have zero social skills, I don't even know how I landed my friendship with Mary. One could think that after fifty years, I should've acquired some hint of a skill, but nope. I am awkward and I never know what to say. When I actually say something, I scare people away. Sometimes, I wonder if the problem is my loneliness or if I'm just different. 

After walking for a while, we decided to come back to my place to eat. The guy from this morning wasn't there anymore, I hope he ended up OK. She liked my apartment more than hers, because it was a lot cozier. I put a lot of time and effort, because I need a place that feels like home. I had a two places light gray couch, very fluffy and large so we could be comfortable having our legs up. I also added recently some lights strings on the ceiling and a carpet that enveloped the room. I painted every room too. My room was a light yellow that reminded me of the brightest sun. My duvet cover was white (I know, dangerous decision), and I had lots and lots of books on shelves on the walls. I decorated with some of my favorite drawings I did during the years. My kitchen wasn't too special, because it needed to be updated and it wasn't up to me. I did some light blue tho, and added small flowers on the cabinets. 

« I think I will eventually need to come back living with you Alee. I feel more alone by the days... Could I stay the night at least today? »

I was taken aback. I liked living with her, but I liked being alone too and I don't have much space here. But, I loved her so very much, I would do anything for her. 

« Of course Mary, you can come here a little bit, it's no worry. I love being with you. »

She started to cry, and nodded with a small smile. I should've been more aware of how she was, I didn't feel like a very good friend. 

« Thank you Alee, I really needed this. »