Chapter 147: The Weight of a Secret
Monday, 4 October, 2010
The morning air at the training ground felt crisp and refreshing nothing like the week before. Their win over Gillingham had been more than just a result, it was a much-needed mental reset.
The energy in the air wasn't just because they'd won, it was because their team spirit had come back to life.
The players were laughing and joking again, the kind of playful banter that had been missing was now back in full swing.
It was a clear sign that the team had found its identity again, and their confidence was starting to return.
The passing drills had a new rhythm to them. Jamal Osei and Tom Whitehall were rock-solid in midfield, exchanging quick, sharp one-touch passes, a quiet sign of the chemistry building between them.
Thiago, grinning cheekily, slipped the ball through Reece Darby's legs, earning a playful shove and a round of laughter from the others.
Out wide, Nate Sutton the young, lightning-fast winger linked up with Max Simons, the team captain. Max didn't need to shout to lead, a nod or a simple gesture was enough to guide the play.
Even Niels, standing on the sidelines, let a small, satisfied smile cross his face. This was the team he remembered.
For Dev Patel, though, all the laughter and team spirit felt distant. He was there in body, running the drills, but his mind was miles away.
He kept replaying his agent's phone call—"A Champions League club... life-changing... stay focused." The words echoed in his head. Keeping it all a secret felt like a weight pressing on his chest, something he couldn't shake.
He tried to concentrate, to tune into the rhythm of the passes and the flow of the game, but he was just a little off. His passes weren't as sharp, his timing a touch slow.
It was like a ghost following him on the pitch hesitations, heavy touches, small mistakes most wouldn't notice, but the sharpest eyes definitely would.
During a small-sided game, Max received the ball out wide. Dev was the clear passing option wide open, with space to drive forward. But he hesitated. His eyes flicked toward the touchline, almost instinctively, as if checking for a scout who might be watching. That split second was enough to lose the moment.
Max, a player who thrived on timing and instinct, gave Dev a quick, puzzled look disappointed before turning back and playing a safer pass. It was a brief moment, but it carried weight, a small crack in the team's freshly restored chemistry.
Niels, whose eyes missed nothing, blew his whistle. The session stopped instantly, and the buzz of conversation faded into silence. He walked straight over to Dev, his face a mix of concern and quiet authority.
"Dev," he said in a low voice, pulling him aside from the rest of the team, "what's going on? You're playing like you never got off the bus. We're a team that fights but we've got to think, too."
Dev hesitated, struggling to find the right words. He couldn't tell the truth, not yet.
"Just… tired, Coach," he said quietly, avoiding eye contact. "It's been a long few days."
Niels's face grew serious.
"Being tired was your excuse last week," he said firmly. "But this week, there are no excuses. We're not doing tired, we're doing discipline.
Last week, you listened and played like a real footballer. But today? You're not playing like that.
So tell me, did one good game and a little praise make you forget this is a team sport, not just about you?"
Niels's words hit Dev like a punch. It was the same old accusation but this time, for a far more complicated reason.
He couldn't tell Niels the truth, he couldn't explain the heavy pressure that call about the transfer had put on him.
So, he stayed silent, the secret weighing on his heart and the lie hanging on his tongue.
As he moved across the pitch, Dev felt the weight of every glance from his teammates. They didn't know what was going on, but he was sure they sensed the change in him, the tension beneath the surface.
The transfer call had planted a seed of hope, but also fear. What if this was his only chance? What if he blew it?
His legs kept moving, but his mind was elsewhere calculating, doubting, dreaming. Could he really leave the team behind? Or was it time to prove, not just to Niels or the scouts, but to himself, that he belonged here?
The whistle blew again, pulling him back to the present. The game was still on. And so was his fight.
After the training session ended, the players headed for the showers, but Max Simons stayed behind.
He walked slowly over to Niels, who was busy gathering cones. The veteran striker's face was serious, a sharp contrast to the energy they'd all shared just moments before.
"You talked to Dev," Max said, more of a statement than a question.
Niels nodded, letting out a deep sigh. "His head's not where it needs to be. He's slipping back into trying to do everything on his own. That kind of selfishness? It's poison exactly what tears a team apart."
Max shook his head slowly.
"I don't think that's it, Niels. Not this time. It's different. I've seen this look before in young, talented players. He's not trying to be a one-man show. He's just... distracted. Like there's something else on his mind, something bigger than this pitch."
Niels paused, a cone in his hand, his eyes narrowing as he considered Max's words. He ran a hand through his hair, the tension in his jaw easing slightly.
"Bigger than the team's next game?" he asked quietly.
"Bigger than the team, maybe," Max said quietly, his voice serious.
"Think about it, the goal in Germany, the headlines. Then he listens to you, plays well, and suddenly he's got something else on his mind. It's a classic sign. I'd bet my boots there's a big club sniffing around. Someone's been whispering in his ear."
Niels looked at his captain, a new understanding forming in his mind. Max wasn't talking about selfishness, he was talking about a player carrying a heavy, silent pressure.
The weight on Dev's shoulders wasn't just from Niels's words; it was the possibility of a life-changing move.
As captain, Max had seen it all the subtle shift in focus, how ambition could turn into a distraction. He knew exactly what it looked like when a player's head was pulled away by opportunity.
And now, he was giving Niels an important insight to help guide the team.
"You're probably right," Niels said, his voice softer now. "Thanks, Max."
He appreciated the insight, but his mind was already racing with what to do next. Should he confront Dev directly and risk pushing him away? Or should he give him space, hoping Dev could handle the pressure without it hurting the team's hard-won unity?
The team was just starting to find its rhythm again, and a transfer drama was the last thing they needed right now.
Niels took a deep breath, weighing his options. He knew Dev needed support, but he also needed to feel trusted not cornered.
Maybe a quiet word, away from the team's eyes, would help. Something that showed he understood without adding more pressure.
He glanced toward the showers, the sound of laughter and splashing water drifting over. The team was still united, atleast for now.
Niels vowed to do whatever it took to keep it that way, even if it meant having the toughest conversation of his coaching career.
Meanwhile, Dev stood under the hot shower, the water washing away the mud but not the weight in his chest. He knew he hadn't been himself today.
Niels and Max had seen it too.
That transfer call, which once felt like a golden ticket, now felt more like a heavy chain. Caught between his dream and the team, Dev didn't know which way to run and for the first time, he wasn't sure if there even was a right answer.
The water kept falling, but inside, everything was unsettled.