Trapped In A Novel As The Breeding Mate For Four Powerful Alphas

The topic spiraled out of control, and everyone ended up looking in a random direction. They already knew about this but didn't know how to bring it up since I was apparently unprepared to be intertwined with them.

Well, I already thought this through anyway. I was going to have to do it whether I liked it or not.

"I mean, it's not like I said anything wrong. You're all acting like this isn't a matter of discussion." Seo-Jun said. "It's better to come to a conclusion now that you're still in your right state of mind so that you don't feel like you're being forced later on."

Yeah, his words were blunt and raw but they were true. I emphasized how it would feel to suddenly have a man, an Alpha, hover over me when I was very vulnerable. I would hate it and would rather bite my tongue and die than let them take me against my will.

No, not my tongue, their tongue. I would bite their tongue.

Anyway, Seo-Jun had a big point.

I had to make a decision.

"I'll do it." I suddenly said, surprising them. "When my heat comes. I... I would like to have sex with my masters."

Which one?

Don't ask me. I can't even choose.

"And I hope that when that time comes, even if I'm not in my right state of mind," my face flushed and I held my cheeks, embarrassed by what I was going to say. "...my masters will treat me gently and go slowly."

There, I said it.

What will happen now?

I couldn't bring myself to lift my gaze and watch the reaction my masters had on their faces, but even then, even with the still silence, I could hear heartbeats. Hearts were racing at my words and the place was suddenly getting hot.

(You know the faster ones blood pumps, the hotter they are. That's why the atmosphere felt hot)

"Jo-Pil," I heard Jin-Yeok's voice. "If you say it like that, you're going to make it hard for us to even hold back the little bit of rationality we're holding on to."

What?

I raised my gaze and found the sheer look of excitement on their faces.

Each and every one of them. Even when they tried to hide the excitement, they couldn't help themselves and had red cheeks.

"It's almost like you're saying we shouldn't hold back one bit." Seo-Jun added, licking his lips. "That's dangerous."

"W-wait, hold on." I quickly intervened.

Why did they think was going on?

"I... I didn't mean anything like that." I said.

"I believe you, Jo-Pil." Ki-hoon said, covering his mouth. His heart was beating so loud that it took him a while to actually hear his own thoughts. "But when you say it like that, with that look on your face, there's no way I wouldn't misunderstand."

How did I say it?

I was sure I said it in the simplest way and didn't want them to misunderstand. I said everything I needed to say so how did that get them so excited?

Just look at the look in their eyes.

Tigers, ready to pounce on their prey.

What did I do wrong?

I think I should blame the fact that I have an appearance that makes them go crazy.

I turned away. Well, that wasn't my fault, right? In fact, I don't know what to think anymore. I don't even want to try to get out of this situation through thinking so let's let it pass.

They won't do anything to me anyway.

"Then, should we get to skating?" I asked, getting up, but my legs felt feeble, and I stumbled, but Ki-hoon caught me right away.

Ah, I might've been quite anxious to the point that my legs felt it.

"That was so clumsy of me." I said, smiling brightly. "Thank you, Hyung."

Ki-hoon looked at my smile and I gulped.

What? I didn't do anything seductive.

Why do they make it look like everything I do turns them on? I'm the one who's about to go into heat, not them.

Phew.

Those worries that weighed on my mind and made me think negatively and worriedly were a result of my heat, so I felt a little more at ease.

Even if I started overthinking again, I would try not to put much meaning into it. After thinking of everything that could make me run mad, I would take a deep breath and look forward. Simply seeing the smile on their faces would reassure me.

Is it desire? Is it the future? Is it the pressure that came with being the only one in their eyes?

Whatever. I didn't want to care about them anymore.

Right now, I can't trust myself to make rational decisions, so I'll leave the future and everything in my path to them until my heat finally passes.

"You look like you're doing much better." Min-Cheol said as he helped me wear the skates and I looked down at him.

He was kneeling with one knee while he tied the lace. He looked like he was pretty good at it.

I looked at his hair and then shoved my fingers through it. It was soft.

"Hm?" He looked up at me and I took my hand back, surprised that I had actually done that without thinking.

He saw the surprise on my face and then smiled.

"Don't act so inclined." He said and then got up, stretching his hands towards me. "You know you can touch my head whenever and I would love it, right?"

Yeah, that's right. I'm just being cautious for no reason.

I laughed and then took his hand.

He pulled me up and into his arms, wrapping one arm around my waist and the other landed on my butt, which surprised me.

"Can you stand?" He asked, and I noticed it was a bit uncomfortable standing on ice skates, but not entirely, since I was holding him. "Does it hurt? Or do you feel uncomfortable?" He asked with such a caring tone while his hand groped my ass.

"It's not but... Your hand." I said, looking down at his hand.

"Does it feel uncomfortable?" He asked but I couldn't even answer. "Hyung, if I grab your ass like this and you don't feel comfortable, you have to let me know." He whispered in my ear and then smiled at me.

Ah, that's right. Min-Cheol always did this and didn't ask how I felt about it. Maybe he just didn't expect it to feel uncomfortable on my part but now he wanted to know.

But we were this far in, isn't it too late to tell him that it feels uncomfortable? He'll just burden himself with thinking he had been making me uncomfortable all this time.

And honestly, it wasn't that uncomfortable. I just never expected it so it startled me each time he took me by surprise.

"It's not uncomfortable," I said, and then felt him squeeze lightly.

"Really, Hyung?" He asked and I nodded, though I pressed my lips tightly together because it gave me a certain sensation I wasn't confident in letting out.

It... It turned me on for some reason.

"What are you doing?" Jin-Yeok asked, appearing out of nowhere, and I pushed my head back, my hands pushing Min-Cheol's shoulders back. I was surprised, like someone who had been caught in an affair.

Min-Cheol frowned with pouted lips and looked at Jin-Yeok.

"We were just about to get into the rink. You interrupted." He said, dissatisfied that I pushed him away but he still had one arm wrapped around my waist and the other on my butt.

"Oh?" Jin-Yeok exclaimed and then rolled his eyes downwards to look at Min-Cheol's hand on my ass. "I didn't think getting into the ice rink needed this sort of preparation," he said and his lips curled up in a grin. "Can I join?"

Jeez, you're older. Can you act more mature?

I was supposed to say this but somehow, the words that escaped my lips were completely different, as if I had been possessed.

"S-sure."

Jin-Yeok did not waste any time and grabbed my other ass cheek and squeezed a bit harder than Min-Cheol did, which caused me to fall into Min-Cheol.

"Wow, Jo-Pil. I didn't notice it before but your ass is really soft." He said, and I trembled, and he kept grabbing, and Min-Cheol did the same.

Just shut up.

"Just... Don't talk about it. It... It's embarrassing." I said, and Min-Cheol watched me as I trembled.

It didn't look like I was trembling from discomfort, and it didn't look like I was mad about it either, so he wondered.

Did I secretly like having my ass groped this whole time?

I said I didn't find it uncomfortable so he could only come to that conclusion.

"Have you always liked having your ass groped, Hyung?" He asked and I wondered the same thing.

Have I always liked getting groped?

I don't really know. I didn't even think of it that way most times, and just thought of the fact that it was embarrassing to be watched being groped by him, so I tried to get out of the situation most times.

Whether I liked it or not... I didn't really know.

"What's going on here?" Ki-hoon asked, and I raised my gaze to find him standing next to Seo-Jun, who was grinning at the scene.

"I don't know if I'm misinterpreting this but it surely seems like you're having a groping party without us."

No, you idiot. That's just your own interpretation.