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Ji Hong sighed silently. Looking at him, no longer denying the obvious, Ji Su said:
- That's why I say - just give birth. Oppa, it looks like you're already set to have a baby, so why would I pour cold water? Only create stress. And even if I say "don't give birth, because this is so-and-so", you will probably come up with a bunch of excuses like "maybe it's still possible?", as recently when you defended your boyfriend.
Caught off guard, Ji Hong laughed in confusion.

"Hey, when it's me... It's not what you think, I didn't defend him...
"Ah, that's enough, that's enough. Stop it.
Ji Su waved her hands, not wanting to listen anymore. Fortunately, at that moment, the waiter brought a pot of chiritan, and the conversation was interrupted. As soon as the waiter lit the burner and left, Ji Su began to stir the soup with a ladle and clicked her tongue.

- By the way, I really don't like the way he talks. Maybe he is really too young? Ji Su said with obvious disapproval.
- When he called, I thought it was the collectors calling. He behaved as if he was ready to eat you alive.
"It's just... He was worried.

Ji Hong cautiously tried to explain.
"We were supposed to go to the hospital together today, but he had things to do and he couldn't. Therefore...
"Here we go again!" Back to your own!

Ji Su flared up, accusing her brother of trying to protect the guy once again.
"No, I'm not trying to justify him, it's true...
When Ji Hong was outraged by the unfairness of the accusations, Ji Su rudely threw the ladle.

"That's the excuse!"
- And if he is worried, you can just ask if he went to the hospital, why ask who you are with and where? Even when you said to talk later, he kept calling! Is he a jealous paranoid?
- What kind of paranoid...

Ji Hong laughed at the ridiculousness of the accusation, but then shook his head.
- Okay, let's go, let's not talk about it. You just don't like him, everything he does annoys you. When you meet him in person, you will understand that he is not like that.
- And if I don't like him even more in person?
-Hmm... This will not happen.

In response to his confidence that she would definitely take a liking to her, Ji Su exclaimed.
"Completely blown away with love, honestly!
Scooping up the finally boiling chiritan with a ladle and pouring a portion of Ji Hong, she asked:

- And how did you, a convinced opponent of marriage, suddenly decide to get married?
-Well...
Ji Hong pondered for a moment.

- Because he loves me very much...
"What?..
Ji Su froze with a ladle of soup, her eyes wide open.

"Listen, Oppa, do I think you're the one who loves him more?"
At his sister's remark that he seemed to be blind from love, Ji Hong laughed out loud for the first time in a day. When the laughter had died down, he finally took a spoon and, tasting the broth praised by his sister, said:
-Yes. I think so too.

- And when will you tell mom and dad?
Ji Su asked while they were waiting for a taxi.
"Maybe I'll test the waters first?" I ask how they will react to your hasty wedding?

- No, by no means!
Ji Hong hurriedly stopped his sister.
"I'll tell you later, and in the meantime you pretend that you don't know anything. And don't even hint that I have someone.

"When will you tell me?"
-Later.
-Why? In my opinion, if you're going to tell anyway, it's better to do it as soon as possible.

During their conversation, a free taxi drove up. Because of this, Ji Su had to get into the car without even waiting for Ji Hun's answer.
"I'll go first." Oppa, be careful. If something happens, call.
Ji-so's taxi vanished into the darkness, and soon another taxi arrived in Seoul.

- Driver, I'll tell you the address now.
Sitting in the back seat, Ji Hong dictated his home address and took his phone out of his coat pocket. Looking at the turned off device, he put it back in. If you turn on the phone now, then within ten minutes, Jae Kyung will probably call. After he's dropped the phone twice, this time you'll have to wait until he hangs up the phone himself, which means maybe talk all the way home. The communication itself is not a problem, but the presence of the driver was confusing. Ji Hong was not one of «N.o.v.e.l.i.g.h.t» those shameless types who have intimate conversations with loved ones in front of strangers. And not only because - now I just didn't want to talk. It takes time. It's time to be alone, think calmly and sort out your feelings. It seemed absurd, but during the conversation with Ji Su, his mood had changed countless times. Then, inspired by her support, thought:
"So what, if he is born, then he will be born. Why not?" - and plunged into vague hopes, then suddenly:

"Damn, but it's true... Will I cope? Let everyone do it, but this is about others. And I'm not ready at all," and the mood dropped. Then he lit up again:
"Come on, let's give birth!" - but immediately pulled himself back:
"No, you have to be careful."

Just some kind of swing. Therefore, he decided to discard other people's opinions and listen only to his inner voice, even closed his eyes to concentrate, but the result remained the same - he didn't know.
"It was possible to give birth. Probably, it would have been possible to grow it somehow, spying and imitating others. But is it right to have a child with such a frivolous attitude?"
It was worth thinking about it - and confidence disappeared. "I was worried about whether he, accustomed to the current life, would be able to cope with the fact that after the birth of a child, the whole way of life would have to be rebuilt around the baby. He was scared that he could start to blame the child or regret his birth. Besides, even though they didn't look at it now, if Kwon Jae Kyung got married in such a hurry, there would definitely be a stir, and he didn't want any gossip. And it was a pity for the company that would be confused before the Olympics. And what about Ms. Shim's reaction?"

The very thought was frightening. The more I thought, the more my head hurt. But why couldn't he firmly decide "Okay, let's not give birth"? Ji Hong didn't understand himself. Dozens of troubles loomed ahead, and there was only one good thing - the birth of their child, whom they had not even seen in person yet. But this "one" outweighed everything else. Although he had not even thought about such a thing before.
The taxi pulled up to the house before he could come to any conclusion, and Ji Hong walked out with even more confused thoughts.
At home, he was also in no hurry to turn on the phone. He deliberately took a shower for a long time, then immediately began to prepare for tomorrow's work. I prepared my clothes and only then climbed into bed with my phone.

During this time, seventeen conceded goals have accumulated. Of course, everything is from one person. I wanted to call back right away, but time after eleven is a good excuse to postpone. I opened my work email, looked again at the advertising contracts that Lee's boss had periodically sent for the past two weeks, then went online. I wanted to check whether pheromones are really not released during pregnancy.
He was going to buy the medicine on the way to work, if he secretes at least a little, but he read that immediately after conception, the level of pheromones drops sharply, and after 3-4 days they are not detected at all, and calmed down.
He was definitely only going to check the information about pheromones and go to bed, but for some reason he could not let the phone out of his hands. I continued to look for information about pregnancy. Previously, this area was not interesting at all, and now each link opened something new.

The biggest discovery for Ji Hun, who previously knew only about toxicosis, was that most miscarriages occur early. It was especially shocking that omega men had a 30% higher risk of miscarriage in the first 12 weeks than women, and they were considered at risk regardless of age.
"So ... Even if I want to give birth, it's not a fact that it will work out."
He was despondent. Although he had not yet made a decision, he became worried, began to look for information about preventive injections for miscarriages and so on, until he pulled himself up and got out of bed.

"No, this will not work. I'll drink warm water and sleep quickly."
Staggering slightly, he got out of bed and went to the kitchen to put the kettle on. Unable to wait for the water to boil, I again reached into my phone to look for information about the necessary vitamins during pregnancy, when suddenly the screen was replaced by an incoming call. Ji Hong was frightened and checked the time once again and pressed the answer button.
"Are you awake yet?"

He asked immediately after the connection, but Jae Kyung, without answering, also asked a question:
[Hyung, where are you now?]
The voice sounded unusually serious. Ji Hong swallowed the "Hey, I was the first to ask" and obediently replied.

- Where else, at home, of course.
[And before that, where have you been?]
- In Ilsan. After the hospital, I immediately went to meet my sister.

[What sister?]
"What sister?" My sister, of course.
A quiet "Ah" was heard on the phone.

[And I thought it was a friend...]
His voice finally softened, and Ji Hong couldn't help but laugh at the absurdity of the situation.
"And that's why you called seventeen times?" You know, my sister said you were paranoid.

[What kind of paranoia.]
Jae Kyung replied coldly.
[Just worried.]

"That's paranoia, fool.
Ji Hong scolded him, completely forgetting his excuses to Ji Su.
"I hope you're not at the airport now?"

He joked as he picked up the boiling kettle, to which Jae Kyung muttered.
[No. The earliest flight is at two thirty in the morning, what should I do at the airport now?]
Ji Hong froze with his cup.

"How do you know the departure time?"
Jae Kyung suddenly fell silent. Ji Hong asked suspiciously.
"Did you really check the flights?"

[...]
"Hey, no, don't even think about it!" Don't come! Ji Hong exclaimed in a panic.