Trapped In A Novel As The Breeding Mate For Four Powerful Alphas

Saying they were avoiding me wouldn't be too much of a stretch.

After all, they were all in the mansion and yet they did not come down for dinner.

"Sniff," I sniffed as the tears started to fall. "I was lonely during dinner but I didn't want to think about it since I thought you were all busy with work. I was being considerate but... Wahh!" I cried. "You were just avoiding me after reading my dirty secrets, right? It was uncomfortable to be around me."

My cries put them in the spot and it made it hard for them to explain properly.

If they even had a proper explanation.

"We were rehearsing." Ki-hoon suddenly said and I paused, parting my fingers to look at them from my palm.

Did I hear that right? They were... Rehearsing?

"Seo-Jun came up with the idea that you wanted your fantasies fulfilled so we decided to do so." Jin-Yeok explained, rubbing the back of his neck, "We'd have to know exactly what you want and the kind of reaction to expect from you. Since you wrote it so detailed," he blushed. "It was easy to understand."

Gosh, someone kill me.

I wished the ground would just open up and swallow me, but something told me that my masters wished for that, more so seeing how they looked so embarrassed.

"I... I don't understand." I said and looked towards the drawer where I had kept the book. "How were you rehearsing if you didn't have the book?"

Okay, let's say I wasn't that mad and instead, was struck with curiosity. How were they rehearsing when my book was here?

Did they have a photogenic mind or something?

Wait, photo? Don't tell me...

"Jin-Yeok took a picture of each page." Min-Cheol answered, his face flushed like the rest of them. "That's how we were able to rehearse."

"So, you... You reread the pages over and over?" I asked, embarrassment creeping into my skin. "And you saw... All of it?"

It was obvious but the questions still found a way out of my lips. I gulped.

As if reading it once wasn't enough, they read it over and over until they memorized every word and every action... I... I felt blood flowing towards my head.

Was this one of those times I faint from shock? I guess it is.

But I was too embarrassed to even faint.

My face, my hands, my neck, everywhere on my body was red and you could practically see steam floating out of my head.

I was cooked.

"There... There's nothing too bad there, Hyung." Min-Cheol said, trying to make me feel better but nothing they say will make me feel better.

I'd rather throw myself in the sea than look them in the eye.

"I... I appreciate you were thinking on my behalf," I said, my head lowered and my eyes spinning in spirals. "But I never wanted any of you to read my diary."

Who would want their deepest darkest desires exposed?

"I'm not mad or anything. In fact, I... I'm relieved that you aren't looking at me any differently after what you read but still..." I clutched the sheets. "It doesn't wash away the embarrassment I feel."

They were silent, watching me as I said my piece and explained how I felt about their actions.

"I'm sure it won't be a big deal to actually reenact the dream since my masters are also excited about it but...' I pursed my lips, uncertain of my next words. "Right now, I just want to be alone. Can you... Give me some time alone?"

I wondered if they would insist on staying over or if they were aroused to the point that they would rather relieve themselves there than walk away.

The latter was unlikely but one could never tell.

"Hyung," I heard Min-Cheol call but I did not raise my head. "I really hope you're not upset and covering it up." He said and I flinched.

"If what we did offended you, don't sugarcoat it and say it to our faces." Ki-hoon said. "I knew it was wrong when I looked at your diary, but I didn't stop. You have every right to be mad at us."

"What they said," Seo-Jun said. "Though, I really hope you're not mad at us."

"Jo-Pil, please be honest."

I heard their words and bit my bottom lip.

Sure, the latter was definitely impossible knowing how much they adore me.

But they did not insist either. They, instead, wanted to know my honest thoughts on this matter.

They've come a really long way.

"I'm fine," I said. "I'm being honest when I say I'm fine and the reason I can't look you in the eye and say it is because I feel so embarrassed. I'm not used to having such thoughts, and I don't know why I had them either, but I did. I was shocked at my own desires so I was extremely shocked when I found out all four of you had read it as well."

They looked sullen, like I had hit their sore spot. It was guilt eating at them.

"But then you guys didn't react negatively or look at me any differently. Instead, you went out of your way just to rehearse the words, expressions, and all of it... for me. Even if I were mad at you all," I finally raised my head, showing my awkward smile and my flushed cheeks. "I'd stop being mad knowing you've put in so much effort just to satisfy me. I'm very lucky."

Okay, that took away a part of the guilt they were feeling, glad that they made me feel something with their efforts.

"My masters treat me so well that I'm very embarrassed." I said. "I don't know how to react to it so what I'm feeling right now is somewhat complex. I wanted to be alone for a moment and sort out my emotions, that's why I asked you to leave. I really didn't mean anything more by it, honest"